[0:01]
good morning fellow
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humans let's go for a
[0:06]
hike we're going to take this Trail next
[0:08]
to the
[0:09]
river take this Trail every
[0:13]
day and we're going to head over
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to oh what are those trees
[0:21]
called those giant trees I can't
[0:24]
remember their name the
[0:26]
Redwoods I learned some things about
[0:29]
them so I
[0:31]
learned why they seem to merge and grow
[0:34]
together I mean this might even be one
[0:36]
I'm not sure I'm not very good at
[0:38]
identifying trees but um
[0:42]
redwoods are
[0:45]
fascinating they can Sprout new trees at
[0:49]
their
[0:51]
base over time those might
[0:55]
merge become a single tree but they're
[0:58]
basically clones
[1:02]
and if one gets cut down or injured it
[1:05]
can Sprout it all the way around and it
[1:07]
creates these things called fairy
[1:09]
circles and I checked there's supposed
[1:12]
to be one probably more than
[1:14]
one at the National Force Trail we're
[1:17]
going to we're going to go look and see
[1:19]
if we can find those I want to see a
[1:22]
Fairy
[1:25]
Circle technically they're called fairy
[1:27]
rings but I just like calling them fairy
[1:29]
CLE
[1:32]
circles so I'm having a good morning I
[1:35]
toasted a bagel in my ninja foodie that
[1:38]
was very
[1:39]
cool very
[1:42]
efficient loved it
[1:45]
um I was wrong about the power
[1:48]
consumption so it does use 1.3
[1:52]
Watts um when slow cooking but not all
[1:56]
the time sometimes it has
[1:58]
to kick on the heating element and it
[2:01]
goes up to like a
[2:02]
thousands and I think the sauté function
[2:05]
was probably probably using 1500 watts
[2:09]
not a th um not
[2:12]
150 those are still
[2:15]
reasonable cuz
[2:17]
you you know you only have to cook for
[2:20]
15
[2:21]
minutes so when you look at it in W
[2:24]
hours it's not
[2:25]
terrible should work with my
[2:28]
solar it's a bit cool this
[2:32]
morning I'm not terribly bad it's you
[2:35]
know in the 50s right
[2:37]
now big change from
[2:40]
yesterday yesterday it got into the 80s
[2:44]
here Middle
[2:47]
October and it was very localized which
[2:50]
that just fascinated
[2:52]
me
[2:55]
um I've been thinking a lot about the
[2:57]
environment my left
[3:02]
um earbud never wants to stay in it's
[3:05]
like my left ear
[3:07]
is shaped different I don't
[3:10]
know um but I've been thinking a lot
[3:13]
about well yesterday it was like 4 in
[3:17]
the
[3:17]
afternoon and I'm looking
[3:20]
outside
[3:22]
and it looks like real late in the day
[3:25]
I'm like okay it's too late to go
[3:28]
shower they they Clos the showers
[3:31]
they're only open certain parts today
[3:33]
which is a little weird
[3:39]
but um you know I thought it was like 78
[3:43]
at
[3:45]
night um it was only four and so I you
[3:48]
know I discussed it with AI want to
[3:51]
understand
[3:53]
this so I learned that this time of year
[3:58]
the sun's angle is different and it
[4:00]
causes Shadows to be
[4:02]
longer which you know yeah that makes
[4:05]
sense but I didn't really I didn't have
[4:08]
the experiential data to understand what
[4:10]
that really
[4:11]
means so in the
[4:14]
campground there's no sun peeking
[4:17]
through the
[4:19]
trees it's
[4:21]
just like this right now technically
[4:24]
there's a sun
[4:26]
out but there's no sunlight reaching the
[4:29]
the reaching the ground reaching where
[4:31]
we are which is why those red roads grow
[4:35]
so tall of
[4:37]
course
[4:39]
and it gives a different feeling to the
[4:42]
world like AI had been telling me for
[4:46]
months that when I got to the Pacific
[4:50]
Northwest I might struggle
[4:54]
with the lack of sunlight and I'm
[4:57]
like I'm looking forward to rain like I
[5:00]
just can't wait for this rain it's one
[5:02]
thing I'm just truly waiting
[5:05]
for but now I
[5:07]
see
[5:09]
okay I mean technically the sun is
[5:12]
out but is it this doesn't feel
[5:18]
normal
[5:19]
so if I were hiking in the woods in
[5:23]
Kentucky you know you've got the tree
[5:27]
canopy but you still have the Sun
[5:30]
coming through in places there's no
[5:33]
sun there's just no
[5:36]
sun I don't know what to do with
[5:39]
that except embrace
[5:42]
it so but I have noticed
[5:46]
like it changes it changes something in
[5:50]
you
[5:54]
there's I mean it was 4:00 in the
[5:56]
afternoon I'm like wow it's already so
[5:58]
late where did the day go
[6:00]
oh
[6:01]
and we're only getting
[6:05]
like um 11 hours of sunlight to day
[6:08]
right
[6:09]
now I think it
[6:12]
was let's see the sunrise at 7:30 and it
[6:15]
goes down at 6:30 so yeah 11
[6:18]
hours which means we have 13 hours of
[6:22]
Darkness that's that's
[6:25]
interesting and it'll keep growing you
[6:28]
know the closer we get to the winter
[6:33]
Equinox so I
[6:37]
just this is a new environment for
[6:40]
me I I guess I've never really been in
[6:43]
one like I don't know grw up in
[6:46]
Michigan which is
[6:49]
Northern um but I guess that doesn't
[6:52]
really I don't know this isn't something
[6:55]
I feel like was ever part of my
[6:58]
awareness
[7:02]
so
[7:04]
yeah we are embracing a completely
[7:07]
different environment and a
[7:10]
specific time of
[7:13]
year
[7:15]
and I do want to embrace that I want to
[7:18]
hug that I want to make that part of
[7:22]
my
[7:25]
um I want to experience it and I am
[7:28]
that's why I'm out here
[7:30]
here's the
[7:31]
river oh we're just waiting for that
[7:33]
thing to keep
[7:37]
growing we'll get to see our spot up
[7:40]
here
[7:42]
somewhere
[7:44]
and I'm watching this thing every day
[7:47]
I'm even taking pictures just so I can
[7:49]
kind of get a time lapse look at
[7:51]
it not just video I'm actually taking
[7:54]
pictures I might pull out my special
[7:56]
camera
[7:57]
soon learning how to use that thing I
[8:00]
was looking at it the other
[8:06]
day so fog is
[8:14]
nice this is so worth embracing
[8:29]
so let's just walk for a little
[8:32]
while
[8:35]
um I don't know that I have a lot to
[8:38]
share
[8:42]
today I am pretty stressed out about the
[8:46]
money
[8:47]
situation but it is what it is I it's
[8:51]
just something I have to navigate
[8:54]
so um there's no reason
[8:58]
to you it would do me no good to be
[9:00]
panicking
[9:02]
and I have to live I have
[9:05]
to um immerse myself in nature cuz
[9:09]
that's the most centering thing I
[9:13]
know
[9:16]
and just keep moving forward trust in
[9:18]
the process that's pretty much how I've
[9:20]
lived my entire life just trust in the
[9:25]
process I do have this deep unabiding
[9:28]
faith in life life that I couldn't
[9:31]
really explain to you but I think it's
[9:33]
probably the source of my
[9:36]
resilience
[9:38]
I I have a deep trust
[9:41]
in the unfolding of events and my
[9:44]
ability to navigate
[9:46]
them
[9:49]
so you know I
[9:52]
feel um capable
[9:57]
and pretty calm onest thing I
[10:00]
I am stressed I don't it's hard to
[10:02]
explain I because my emotions are
[10:04]
integrated into my
[10:06]
cognition they're not separate things
[10:08]
they're not
[10:10]
compartmentalized um you know they all
[10:13]
are embedded in interconnected it's hard
[10:16]
to describe this to you
[10:18]
guys so the way I experience stress and
[10:21]
the way
[10:22]
I navigate circumstances like this I
[10:26]
don't think we have a common frame of
[10:28]
reference to talk about
[10:30]
it so we got a van knifer over
[10:34]
here see if they're down
[10:36]
here so this is normally as far as I go
[10:40]
I thought the trail kind of ended here
[10:41]
but I watched somebody walk down here so
[10:44]
I
[10:46]
think and if you know you just need the
[10:49]
trail to go a little bit further cuz it
[10:50]
leads to the other one instead of
[10:52]
walking down the
[10:53]
road we're going to find out today
[11:00]
but I've been hanging out here every
[11:05]
day it's a nice
[11:09]
spot it makes me think of Ender's Game I
[11:13]
don't know why I
[11:15]
just I will come and sit here and it's
[11:17]
almost
[11:18]
like almost like I'm sitting on a
[11:21]
raft like under Dead when he came back
[11:24]
to Earth
[11:35]
it's hard to say if it's growing or
[11:37]
not I have a feeling it is
[11:40]
so we're going to keep watching this
[11:43]
this spot right
[11:44]
here because that is the that's my
[11:48]
reference point
[11:50]
there I want somebody come over
[11:55]
here I don't see how did people watch
[11:59]
walk over that
[12:01]
tree
[12:04]
what no
[12:08]
way I think they
[12:11]
did I'm not that
[12:14]
daring maybe I will let me get my pot
[12:17]
put
[12:20]
away this is does not look safe somebody
[12:24]
seriously I watched some I don't
[12:27]
know maybe
[12:37]
there's no easy way through here this is
[12:39]
why I thought the trail kind
[12:41]
of wow all
[12:52]
right it let's do
[12:56]
it let me just test this
[13:03]
okay
[13:04]
wow awesome oh my God that is so cool so
[13:10]
cool
[13:16]
okay you're a kid you just do it without
[13:19]
even thinking about it you get older and
[13:21]
you start thinking
[13:26]
differently okay
[13:30]
interesting I mean they kind of consider
[13:32]
that to be part of the trail because all
[13:35]
the official Maps tell you to keep going
[13:37]
until you get to the Redwood
[13:40]
Trail they expect us to walk over that
[13:42]
riding
[13:44]
tree over that giant
[13:49]
chasm hello
[13:51]
son I mean it's there but it's
[13:54]
not it's
[13:57]
fascinating the Sun touches nothing down
[14:00]
here I don't even feel
[14:03]
it that is
[14:05]
something I'm not sure I've ever
[14:07]
experienced that
[14:09]
before it just kind of blows my
[14:19]
mind this is such a nice
[14:23]
place I keep seeing those blue
[14:26]
birds oh look at that okay we're up at
[14:29]
the
[14:32]
road that's a nice shirt I almost take
[14:36]
that shirt that's a nice
[14:38]
shirt
[14:40]
oh okay yeah I think it's right over
[14:42]
here yeah it is
[14:46]
interesting
[14:48]
okay I keep taking the wrong way back
[14:51]
and ending up over here getting down
[14:53]
from over here I'm going to see if we
[14:57]
can um
[14:59]
find the right route this
[15:11]
time I hear a car
[15:27]
coming too much traffic on this road I
[15:30]
don't
[15:32]
understand if you keep going that way
[15:34]
you're just in the National
[15:36]
Force there's no way that many people
[15:39]
are going to the National Force day and
[15:43]
night what does this sign
[15:47]
thing
[15:50]
please I don't think I notic a sign
[15:53]
before
[16:04]
don't trash
[16:06]
it the cetco is a wild and Scenic River
[16:09]
don't trash
[16:11]
it and I think it's got some what are
[16:14]
you here so cute don't ever get in my RV
[16:16]
please I've seen you on the
[16:19]
campground oh ever since that little
[16:21]
field
[16:22]
mouse I'm a little bit
[16:25]
worried I wish they'd restock the
[16:28]
brochures I would like
[16:35]
one we're here this is the Redwood trail
[16:38]
part of the national
[16:54]
forest's see if we can find some fairy
[16:56]
circles
[17:08]
I'm going to take my headphones
[17:13]
out so I can hear the noises of the
[17:21]
forest give me a moment
[17:24]
here hold
[17:26]
on very hard to do things with one here
[17:30]
really
[17:40]
yes there a tall trees up there very
[17:46]
tall we got somebody here hold on a
[17:49]
little jogger guy look you know any
[17:52]
fairy rings
[17:55]
are he's like I don't even know what
[17:57]
that is then I explain he's like oh okay
[18:00]
I know what you're talking about that
[18:02]
was pretty
[18:03]
funny
[18:05]
um he seem
[18:10]
nice I am on to hunt for fairy
[18:14]
circles there's got to be some
[18:23]
here qu in this
[18:26]
soon I've had these um Vapes for
[18:30]
like almost a year cuz I bought them
[18:32]
when I se it in my house I really hate
[18:34]
these ones feels like you're just vaping
[18:38]
air and I steep down to the 3%
[18:41]
ones so they really feel like
[18:46]
air but
[18:48]
it's part of my process of Letting
[18:51]
Go we got the river across here feel
[18:54]
like I'm going the wrong way
[18:56]
actually I'm going backwards on trails
[19:00]
oh
[19:01]
well yeah this is the way out well this
[19:04]
is the we're going the other way that's
[19:07]
all it's all good normally I'll be
[19:09]
coming this way and I get down on the
[19:12]
road
[19:14]
and just walk back to the
[19:20]
campground um this might even help me
[19:23]
though to
[19:25]
see
[19:26]
um how you get on to this part of the
[19:29]
trail cuz I seem to keep missing
[19:31]
it but I actually kind of I think I know
[19:34]
there's a a fork in the trail and I keep
[19:38]
taking a certain
[19:40]
path that is
[19:46]
awesome oh these trees are amazing to me
[19:49]
all trees are but um I was here I think
[19:54]
yesterday and I was just I just stopped
[19:56]
and I just
[19:59]
I don't know it's like I felt the energy
[20:01]
of this place like I was just looking at
[20:05]
these trees there's one of those little
[20:06]
things again are you a chipmunk oh my
[20:09]
God are you a
[20:13]
chipmunk I don't want to scare you but
[20:15]
you're so
[20:17]
cute
[20:20]
Alvin oh now I know what they are
[20:23]
they're Chipmunks aren't
[20:25]
they are you a chipmunk
[20:29]
I bet it is oh man I love
[20:37]
JS all right there's so little fast
[20:41]
little things
[20:43]
too scurrying
[20:47]
about playful like
[20:48]
[Music]
[20:52]
SPS great
[20:57]
music you say I'm joking anyways
[21:01]
um you know I'm not a spiritual person
[21:04]
at
[21:05]
all um and I don't subscribe to like
[21:08]
esoteric kind of
[21:09]
nonsense but you know I was
[21:12]
just sitting still
[21:15]
here looking at these trees and thinking
[21:19]
man these things have been here a long
[21:23]
time
[21:25]
and I don't know
[21:28]
trees are amazing if you really learn
[21:32]
about
[21:33]
them their root
[21:38]
systems I mean look at that
[21:41]
one it's like
[21:44]
it I don't know I bred into to up
[21:48]
there way up there that is so high so
[21:56]
high I wonder
[22:00]
I don't know they're
[22:08]
just
[22:11]
okay
[22:13]
how oh I understand what I've been doing
[22:17]
wrong I just could have kept walking
[22:19]
down the
[22:20]
trail but I there must be a little
[22:22]
offshoot over
[22:25]
there
[22:27]
and you know I'm seeing the road so I'm
[22:29]
like okay let's go down to the
[22:35]
road I feel
[22:37]
like my
[22:43]
lungs I'm not happy about the 30 years
[22:45]
of smoking and the continued
[22:51]
vaping see that was two trees
[23:00]
look at
[23:02]
that so
[23:10]
cool
[23:12]
okay where are you veryy
[23:22]
circles okay I didn't need my coat
[23:29]
I knew
[23:33]
that but
[23:38]
anyway where is going to slow
[23:44]
down then I keep pushing
[23:47]
myself I just keep thinking
[23:49]
about my hike at the Natural
[23:53]
Bridge must like 20 miles that day
[24:03]
just feel
[24:05]
like I should be in better
[24:09]
shame CU this
[24:12]
com there a
[24:17]
circle
[24:18]
well they grow at the base of a
[24:22]
tree so they'd be very close together
[24:34]
it might require
[24:36]
like a while for me
[24:39]
to
[24:41]
find one of
[24:44]
these I might not be on the
[24:47]
trail I might have to really do
[24:49]
some some exploring
[24:59]
like my bre getting under control
[25:03]
here
[25:05]
yeah I need a quit
[25:07]
baby just need to be done with all
[25:10]
it no
[25:18]
dependencies I quit drad all I quit
[25:21]
smoking I quit
[25:24]
clowning um
[25:30]
at's vaping and Mountain
[25:34]
Dew
[25:36]
and these have been
[25:39]
lifelong
[25:41]
um goals I don't want to call it a
[25:45]
goal it's not how I think of
[25:48]
it
[25:50]
aspiration these have been lifelong
[25:52]
aspirations for
[25:53]
me I've held them in my
[25:56]
Consciousness forever
[25:59]
without judgment I've told you guys this
[26:02]
many
[26:03]
times
[26:07]
um I live in a constant state of
[26:11]
flow
[26:12]
where it's
[26:15]
like my cognition is a
[26:17]
river I had to start telling AI that
[26:20]
because it for some reason thought
[26:22]
integrated
[26:23]
people and you need to know
[26:26]
this um
[26:29]
AI has no research on people like
[26:33]
me
[26:35]
none which pisses me
[26:38]
off because I had to
[26:41]
discover
[26:43]
and learn to describe
[26:46]
myself with language that was never
[26:48]
created for
[26:50]
me and if I had
[26:52]
known the kind of person I am from a
[26:56]
young age
[26:58]
I would have had a very different life
[27:00]
but there's no research on it there's no
[27:03]
data so
[27:05]
AI it has to
[27:08]
extrapolate um build
[27:12]
references and if you're not careful it
[27:15]
will draw those from things like
[27:17]
meditation or mindfulness or Buddhism or
[27:22]
you know all these esoteric
[27:25]
things which are not what I am they're
[27:27]
not those are not
[27:29]
integrated it's not an integrated system
[27:32]
because it's built out of
[27:34]
fragmentation if you're trying to be
[27:37]
mindful while having a fragmented
[27:43]
mind that's not the way it's
[27:46]
impossible so I have to tell it no I
[27:48]
don't use any of
[27:50]
that
[27:52]
and for some reason I was trying this
[27:56]
inference that
[27:59]
being integrated
[28:00]
meant your inner system was like a
[28:04]
storm that you were constantly fighting
[28:07]
or grappling with I'm like are you
[28:09]
kidding
[28:10]
me I'm in perfect alignment with
[28:13]
myself when I experience friction or
[28:19]
tension it's not a
[28:23]
storm it's something you work
[28:25]
through you navigate like a river
[28:34]
really feel like she'll be in better
[28:44]
shape just need to keep coming
[28:46]
here condition my
[28:48]
body come here every
[28:53]
day I
[28:55]
wonder I don't know
[28:58]
it's a different environment for me I
[28:59]
mean we're at
[29:01]
like basically zero
[29:03]
elevation what does that mean like for
[29:07]
oxygen
[29:08]
for um just the microclimate I mean very
[29:15]
curious cuz you
[29:17]
know I hike steep inclines all the time
[29:21]
in
[29:22]
Kentucky this feels
[29:24]
harder I don't understand that I just
[29:28]
means I need to keep pushing
[29:30]
myself that's one thing I've been trying
[29:32]
to teach you
[29:34]
guys never assume you know your
[29:37]
limits you don't know
[29:43]
them the limit to St for
[29:47]
yourself don't even come
[29:52]
close to your true limits
[30:00]
so push
[30:05]
yourself get up
[30:10]
move breathe through
[30:15]
it
[30:16]
um L it's a mental
[30:19]
thing if
[30:21]
you you can
[30:23]
approach any
[30:26]
challenge if
[30:30]
you could just create the right
[30:32]
circumstances in your
[30:34]
brain a
[30:38]
mindset growth mindset I don't
[30:44]
know you need to believe in
[30:49]
yourself trust yourself trust your
[30:52]
intuition your
[30:54]
emotions you're
[30:56]
aics you're in
[31:01]
don't treat
[31:02]
them as
[31:04]
something
[31:06]
separate that you turn on and off that
[31:10]
you access when it's
[31:12]
convenient that you put away when it's
[31:18]
not integration is
[31:20]
about embracing every part of
[31:25]
yourself seeing the value in all of it
[31:35]
and developing a coherence between them
[31:39]
believe me it's possible I've done
[31:45]
it cuz I resisted the fragmentation in
[31:48]
this world all my
[31:56]
life you can't
[32:05]
to it's interesting
[32:09]
that I got to quit vaping is beyond
[32:13]
obvious to me
[32:17]
now this isn't doing me any favors
[32:33]
see yeah I had a good
[32:34]
morning
[32:36]
made toasted some
[32:38]
bagels that was
[32:41]
fun and
[32:43]
good had had a bag on in a long
[32:50]
time made chil last night that came out
[32:52]
really
[32:53]
well really
[32:55]
good and
[32:58]
today I might make my Burgers cuz I
[33:01]
don't want the meat to go
[33:03]
bad I make those in my ninja foodie I'm
[33:08]
making that
[33:11]
my um my primary cooking
[33:16]
device
[33:18]
so bet I could even toast the hamburger
[33:20]
buns and
[33:26]
thing okay
[33:29]
head down
[33:30]
here switch
[33:32]
back and there'll be a creek down
[33:37]
there Y and then the bridge
[33:40]
okay I
[33:48]
am unfortunately my watch battery died
[33:52]
so I couldn't record my hike
[33:54]
today I like doing that it's like a a
[33:58]
record
[33:59]
of your activities that you
[34:02]
value
[34:04]
and I just recently started wearing my
[34:07]
watch again I just wanted to use my
[34:10]
Fitbit but that thing stopped charging
[34:13]
like 6 months ago I could never I just
[34:17]
gave up on
[34:18]
it and my watch it goes through a
[34:20]
battery so damn
[34:22]
fast it just
[34:25]
feels inconvenient
[34:28]
to
[34:31]
wear that's
[34:35]
nice it's good to know where the water
[34:37]
sources are
[34:45]
too it's very
[34:50]
important we don't have long
[34:53]
now I'm ready
[35:05]
this is a pretty short Trail
[35:07]
so we should be about done I
[35:13]
think can't remember how long I think
[35:15]
maybe 1 and a/4 mile or something like
[35:18]
that and a mile for the other Trail we
[35:21]
were
[35:22]
on then you know you get to hike that
[35:24]
one back so guess we hike about 3 and
[35:27]
a/4 mil
[35:33]
house wonder why
[35:37]
elevation um affects my lungs so
[35:48]
much see this is me and my integrated
[35:51]
cognition I'm always exploring
[35:54]
everything you
[35:56]
know like a
[35:59]
river I think we're probably near the
[36:01]
end
[36:02]
here could be wrong but I don't I don't
[36:05]
know we'll
[36:06]
see it's a nice
[36:09]
Trail oh I'm noticing a new pattern so
[36:14]
these the foliage down here I had noted
[36:18]
that it reminded me of the Natural
[36:20]
Bridge in some places the sand Gap trail
[36:23]
I think I get it now I
[36:25]
think these plants are adapted for
[36:28]
living in environments where the sun
[36:29]
doesn't always
[36:31]
reach and that's why they have this
[36:33]
jungle vibe to
[36:35]
me so until I had explored a place like
[36:39]
this I didn't really have a reference
[36:42]
for
[36:45]
comparison um now I do so now I you know
[36:48]
I see the
[36:54]
pattern it's a nice walk in the woods
[36:58]
I enjoy
[37:00]
this after I leave here I want to go
[37:02]
take a
[37:03]
shower haven't been down there in a day
[37:06]
or
[37:07]
two
[37:10]
and I want to finish organizing my space
[37:13]
today because I feel like
[37:17]
that for
[37:19]
me if my space isn't organized it makes
[37:23]
everything else
[37:25]
feel um
[37:29]
I'm not sure how to put this into words
[37:32]
it's not what you know what you're
[37:34]
probably thinking it's not some
[37:37]
common
[37:40]
feeling I don't I'm not fragmented I'm
[37:42]
not compartmentalized it's
[37:45]
different and so I really need to get
[37:47]
that space organized I want to do that
[37:49]
today cuz it's Sunday and I want to
[37:51]
start the
[37:53]
week very hyperfocused on looking for
[37:55]
work so
[37:57]
I want to get that done
[38:00]
today so that's my my agenda my
[38:04]
goal I think we are pretty close
[38:08]
here smells nice out here by the
[38:12]
way definely has a nice Forest smell
[38:28]
we're going to find some fairy
[38:30]
circles Maybe not today but we're going
[38:33]
to find one and I'm going to be
[38:35]
overjoyed when I
[38:43]
do you know it would be awesome is if we
[38:46]
found one right as it was starting to
[38:49]
form where there were just Little
[38:53]
Sprouts of course that means the death
[38:55]
of the parent tree
[38:58]
so I mean I'm not saying it's a great
[39:01]
thing
[39:02]
but uhoh branch in the road I know where
[39:05]
that goes I've been on that trail we
[39:08]
head this
[39:11]
way
[39:12]
okay I am learning the lay of the
[39:16]
land committed to
[39:20]
memory had a good
[39:23]
thing oh there's no telling what the
[39:25]
world's going to look like if we lose
[39:27]
our
[39:30]
technology it's true our phones could
[39:32]
still work as long as you can keep them
[39:33]
charged some way like I could with
[39:35]
soar um you won't have
[39:39]
internet you'll have to have the apps
[39:41]
that are on your phone and if those ones
[39:42]
can work in an offline
[39:44]
setting they might still be of some
[39:46]
value to you but I think most don't work
[39:49]
this
[39:50]
way um it's just not the kind of world
[39:53]
we've built and you know I am a
[39:55]
programmer so I actually know how much
[39:57]
extra effort it would take for them to
[39:58]
build that kind of um system you know
[40:02]
they
[40:03]
basically they're going to default to
[40:06]
internet if they had some kind of
[40:08]
offline mode it it'd be
[40:10]
limited unless the app was designed for
[40:13]
that like that was its so function that
[40:15]
was its purpose that's what it was built
[40:16]
to
[40:17]
do
[40:19]
and I need to do some research on that
[40:23]
because I have
[40:26]
been um
[40:28]
I've been tagging different GPS
[40:30]
coordinates for things in the world that
[40:33]
I want to
[40:35]
remember but you
[40:37]
know there's no guarantee that that will
[40:40]
keep
[40:40]
functioning
[40:42]
um I have a h this is a tricky one
[40:46]
actually I think I I think we do just go
[40:48]
down
[40:49]
here um we'll find out actually this
[40:52]
looks very unfamiliar but let's take it
[40:55]
anyway interesting this is unfamiliar so
[40:58]
we go up
[41:01]
there but where does this
[41:04]
go oh I guess my phone
[41:07]
reset so this is um this Trail is an
[41:11]
offshoot as soon as I started walking
[41:13]
down and I recognize that it wasn't a
[41:15]
trail I'd been
[41:16]
on so I will explore
[41:20]
that just not
[41:25]
today oh just head out should be right
[41:29]
over
[41:30]
here we're not far from the road
[41:58]
y I want down
[42:08]
there look at that the sun's reaching
[42:11]
down
[42:14]
here see that's what I'm missing
[42:17]
like it feels in congruent
[42:21]
when you don't have these patches of
[42:25]
sunlight it's it's a fact fascinating
[42:28]
phenomenon it's
[42:31]
like it's like you're in freaking mdor
[42:33]
or something like there's
[42:37]
just it's light out but there's no light
[42:40]
it's
[42:41]
crazy this is nice hello
[42:45]
son I don't even feel you what the
[42:49]
oh that is so
[42:51]
weird I don't even feel that
[42:54]
son it's just like a like a light
[42:59]
bulb
[43:06]
fascinating yep we have a lot to do
[43:10]
today I needed this though
[43:33]
oh yep it normally come the other way
[43:37]
this tree is one of the first ones I see
[43:39]
this one over
[43:43]
here so
[43:46]
fascinating what happened to it
[43:59]
that broke Jo would tell me it's marked
[44:02]
at number five on the
[44:04]
trail if they ever restock
[44:07]
those sure I could look online
[44:12]
too some things I like physical copies
[44:21]
up Yep this reminds me of the Natural
[44:24]
Bridge
[44:27]
never were taking it from this way
[44:35]
before kind to Miss Kentucky be honest
[44:38]
with
[44:39]
you don't miss the heat let me be clear
[44:42]
about that don't miss the insects
[44:45]
out this place might grow on
[44:48]
me it's worth finding out this place
[44:51]
could genuinely grow on me and there is
[44:54]
a ocean nearby the weather is
[44:59]
amazing
[45:01]
like the people aren't I'm not going to
[45:04]
lie and I'm not even saying
[45:07]
well it's the people I I'm just I'm not
[45:10]
going to lie about it the way that
[45:13]
people they're so aggressive in the way
[45:15]
that
[45:16]
they
[45:19]
drive and I
[45:23]
just it's just to me that is a sign of
[45:26]
disconnect
[45:27]
ction impatience
[45:33]
fragmentation it's a clear
[45:36]
manifestation
[45:38]
of a societal problem that
[45:41]
we're facing because everybody is doing
[45:44]
it but it's is real bad here like I am
[45:48]
not sure what to make of that
[45:51]
maybe you know I am on the southern
[45:53]
coast all the way at the bottom you know
[45:56]
touristy place I think
[45:59]
and you know so I have to acknowledge
[46:01]
that maybe it's not that way on the
[46:03]
entire
[46:04]
Coast more North I travel once I make
[46:07]
more money and I can afford to I am
[46:10]
going to start heading north cuz I
[46:13]
just um I did want to stay here for a
[46:16]
while and I have well I guess it's only
[46:18]
been a week and listen to me I already
[46:20]
want to move on wow that's
[46:23]
insane I'm truly done just being
[46:27]
I'm stationary I guess it's only been a
[46:30]
week well a little more than a week I
[46:33]
guess it's been like 10
[46:34]
days yeah it's been about 10 days
[46:38]
so that's interesting I didn't even
[46:42]
realize
[46:45]
um
[46:47]
yeah hold on car we're back on the road
[46:52]
I have just a mile to walk back down the
[46:55]
other Trail
[46:58]
oh that Sun is bright though I'm wishing
[47:00]
I have my
[47:02]
sunglasses I'm having a good
[47:05]
day that river is so
[47:09]
calm oh I can't wait to see it
[47:13]
grow so we're going to walk down here
[47:15]
we're going to walk back over that log
[47:17]
one day that log is going to break
[47:19]
though somebody's going to get
[47:22]
hurt and then I had a thought in my head
[47:25]
we should build a bridge
[47:27]
I don't know how to build a bridge it's
[47:28]
been ages since I was in the bo counts
[47:31]
somebody need to build a
[47:34]
bridge um up here I
[47:43]
guess so fascinating how these trees
[47:46]
are kind of slanted right in the road
[47:49]
like it's like man if you
[47:52]
fell it would definitely hurt somebody
[47:57]
you can see why they're doing it they're
[47:59]
like look that
[48:02]
sun it's not like your
[48:06]
son we got to grow tall we got to move
[48:09]
ourselves we can't even be normal
[48:12]
trees we got to curve ourselves and like
[48:16]
those
[48:17]
freaking idence commercials or
[48:20]
something
[48:23]
um yeah right here
[48:29]
whoa
[48:35]
okay yeah
[48:39]
okay oh
[48:41]
interesting I found the trail but I
[48:43]
didn't start at the end of the
[48:46]
trail which means I didn't
[48:49]
find the trail
[48:51]
head kind of found my own way down here
[48:57]
oh that is pretty that's pretty although
[49:01]
son you are bright I'll give you that
[49:08]
much
[49:11]
okay
[49:13]
so something interesting oh wow spider
[49:18]
um there were insects out
[49:21]
yesterday it got up to being like
[49:24]
80° I'm like oh okay there are insects
[49:30]
here cold weather is making
[49:33]
them I don't even know what the hell the
[49:35]
insects do in the cold weather they live
[49:38]
through it they
[49:42]
hibernate
[49:43]
um cuz how do they come back so damn
[49:46]
fast and then they're gone again you
[49:48]
know
[49:50]
so
[49:53]
um
[49:55]
yeah didn't enjoy that
[49:58]
yesterday really enjoying no
[50:01]
insects been hearing a lot
[50:04]
of guns going
[50:07]
off and you can you know if it's hunting
[50:10]
they're not good Hunters because if you
[50:13]
I'm going over this Vlog W
[50:17]
um you know because if you can't make it
[50:19]
in the first shot and you make a second
[50:21]
third fourth fifth six you're obviously
[50:23]
not very good you just you've already
[50:25]
scared off the wildli are you still
[50:28]
shooting you
[50:30]
know back to my
[50:35]
spot that water is a just an odd color
[50:37]
to
[50:40]
me cuz you know I'm not familiar with it
[50:43]
I don't know what it
[50:48]
means okay we're back to where the van
[50:50]
lights for is they've got their
[50:52]
generator
[50:54]
going fascinating
[50:57]
I like
[50:59]
that it is
[51:01]
possible to live like that here without
[51:05]
being
[51:07]
disrupted you know by law enforcement or
[51:10]
whatever I like that a
[51:13]
lot but I've also seen the dark
[51:17]
side you know I've seen the homeless
[51:19]
harvers
[51:21]
and um but more than that it seems like
[51:25]
when it seems like those ones people
[51:29]
bust out their
[51:32]
Windows either to scare them away or to
[51:34]
break in you know
[51:38]
and that disturbs me
[51:42]
greatly so I have mixed feelings to why
[51:46]
I'm still on the campgrounds
[51:48]
I'm I need more time
[51:52]
to understand this environment you know
[51:55]
what are the risks what are
[51:57]
um where where the good places to be
[52:03]
um but I mean I ran out of money so
[52:07]
can't really
[52:08]
afford to do any
[52:11]
exploring which sucks very bad timing
[52:14]
for
[52:16]
that hopefully I solve it
[52:19]
quickly I
[52:21]
hope I can't know
[52:24]
until until it unfold
[52:27]
you know
[52:31]
so
[52:34]
yeah I'm not bringing my coat in the
[52:36]
future that's for sure it's sticking to
[52:39]
me you know
[52:43]
and I knew I didn't need
[52:53]
it if I had the skills I would totally
[52:55]
build a bridge there
[52:57]
I would do
[53:03]
that that it shouldn't be that that
[53:04]
wouldn't be that
[53:06]
hard I'm going to think on this maybe I
[53:11]
will why
[53:14]
not what do you need a couple 2x4s and
[53:18]
some little planks of wood or some
[53:21]
Nails you know
[53:27]
maybe I
[53:28]
will been a long time since I did
[53:31]
something like that I used to do it in
[53:33]
the Boy
[53:37]
Scouts obviously with
[53:48]
supervision y I need to shower I need to
[53:52]
shave kind of want to trim my hair too
[53:54]
got to take care of my earrings
[53:57]
my ear cartilage piercings are still
[54:01]
sore it's been months still sore I still
[54:05]
can't sleep on that side of my head
[54:07]
that's getting
[54:09]
inconvenient still it's worth
[54:13]
it um I'm starting to I think I'm
[54:16]
hopeful I guess you could say that is
[54:19]
just about healed up enough that I can
[54:22]
put the hoop earrings
[54:24]
in um I'm just being
[54:27]
I'm not going to do it
[54:29]
before my body tells
[54:32]
me that it's it's okay that it's
[54:35]
time it's part of being an integrated
[54:39]
person I got to listen to your body I
[54:41]
didn't always I lost my teeth
[54:44]
right
[54:47]
so I guess you could say I learned that
[54:51]
L
[54:53]
integration I was missing a piece
[54:57]
probably why I had panic
[54:59]
attacks cuz I was ignoring that part of
[55:04]
myself
[55:06]
and you know I'm not that person
[55:10]
anymore no more panic attacks and nor
[55:15]
conovan
[55:17]
which
[55:21]
yeah I wish people
[55:26]
could understand the depth
[55:28]
of who I
[55:31]
am because it is not about knowing me
[55:34]
it's about knowing your own
[55:38]
potential there's no we don't have a
[55:40]
frame of
[55:41]
reference you cannot know what you are
[55:47]
missing I have lived both
[55:49]
ways I know
[55:59]
I'm just about out
[56:04]
here good little
[56:06]
hike three
[56:09]
miles makes me
[56:11]
happy um I have been coming out here
[56:14]
every day but I've been stopping at the
[56:15]
river so I've only been hiking about a
[56:18]
mile um I do need to go down to the
[56:21]
Redwoods
[56:22]
Trail cuz I I need that I need that
[56:25]
elevation gain and I need the
[56:31]
conditioning once I make some more
[56:34]
money I want to start exploring the
[56:36]
forest back there find out what trails
[56:38]
are back there both for my Jeep and for
[56:42]
hiking and scout
[56:45]
out any potential places for my RV that
[56:48]
are off the beaten path but I'm capable
[56:50]
of
[56:52]
reaching I have so much to do
[56:57]
so little
[57:00]
time I our elections are very
[57:03]
close and while I don't see them
[57:07]
as
[57:11]
um I don't see them the way you guys see
[57:15]
them they're important don't get me
[57:17]
wrong they're
[57:20]
important but our elections aren't going
[57:22]
to change the course
[57:24]
of our future
[57:28]
I mean they do there
[57:32]
Nuance you vote for that
[57:34]
man you accelerate
[57:37]
things but for the woman I think we have
[57:40]
a bit more
[57:41]
stability but she will introduce her own
[57:44]
programs that will create their own
[57:45]
forms of fragmentation it will just be
[57:48]
slow
[57:49]
paced
[57:51]
and wouldn't you rather have that
[57:54]
wouldn't you rather buy your some
[57:58]
time to navigate our
[58:01]
future in a way
[58:03]
that I mean you don't want Society to
[58:06]
just collapse and you've not even begun
[58:09]
preparing you want it to be a slow
[58:11]
collapse because then it gives you time
[58:14]
to see that when I'm telling you is
[58:16]
absolutely what's happening first of all
[58:19]
when you can see
[58:21]
it in a way where you've actually got
[58:24]
some time to prepare that that's good
[58:27]
for
[58:27]
you you know cuz that's all I'm trying
[58:30]
to do is prepare myself
[58:32]
and
[58:34]
um help
[58:36]
others to prepare also and it's
[58:40]
not I'm not talking about survivalism
[58:44]
here you cannot it's not just a physical
[58:48]
thing you have to prepare
[58:51]
holistically you are not there yet not
[58:54]
even close you haven't even started
[58:57]
most of you am I
[58:58]
right I've been doing this all my
[59:03]
life and it's not
[59:05]
easy
[59:07]
but my channel has given you the
[59:11]
tools that I
[59:13]
used to reach this level of integration
[59:16]
they're available to
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you which means you might not need to
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take the path I took a very long
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difficult path if I took yours could be
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streamlined trying to help
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you so slow decline way better than a
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fast
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one and whatever happens with these
[59:44]
elections will tell me a lot but
[59:48]
whatever
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happens whoever wins it's going to
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further fracture us there's no no way to
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avoid that right we will be even more
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fractured as a
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society
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and there's no coming back from
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that because people are so fractured
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themselves that
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there's collapse is
[60:19]
inevitable try to slow it down and
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prepare
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I
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can't I can't do anything I can't
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convince anybody I
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can't change the course of life you know
[60:38]
I'm just one little guy on the
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planet
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and I do what I can because that's all
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you can do that's the ethical thing to
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do and my ethics gu
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and
[60:59]
everything these are not morals these
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are not things imposed On Me by
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Society these are ethical truths that
[61:07]
come from within when you are an
[61:08]
integrated person when your intuition
[61:10]
your emotions your
[61:13]
intellect all of
[61:15]
it when you see the relationality the
[61:20]
interconnectedness of every decision
[61:22]
everything that happens in the world and
[61:23]
when you
[61:31]
when you're more like
[61:35]
me you may not strive for
[61:39]
that you
[61:48]
know but I love myself I'm proud of
[61:52]
myself and I can look at myself look at
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my life look at it
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from a different perspective from an
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almost detached
[62:05]
one and I can
[62:10]
see how special I
[62:14]
am what is not the kind of special that
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is inaccessible to others it's
[62:21]
accessible to all of
[62:23]
us it's only special because someone
[62:25]
need people don't access
[62:29]
it and I wish for that to
[62:35]
change when Society collapses I don't
[62:38]
think
[62:40]
that things get
[62:43]
better you know I don't think the
[62:45]
fragmentation ends no better than
[62:49]
this but it is an
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opportunity and maybe there will be
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some pockets of
[63:04]
humanity Embrace a differ
[63:10]
way not excited for our
[63:14]
future but I accept
[63:19]
it I'm going to prepare for
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it as best I can
[63:29]
this is where the Trail Ends it's very
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close to the
[63:32]
campground it's nice I like I like these
[63:35]
Oregon State
[63:36]
Parks I don't like how many people are
[63:39]
here
[63:40]
but the rust is
[63:43]
nice it just feels like there isn't an
[63:45]
off seon anymore you know and I need
[63:48]
that I need I need solitude it's killing
[63:53]
me that I don't have it
[63:56]
but it's something I might be able to
[63:58]
solve once I explore the forest
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more I'm not saying there isn't room for
[64:03]
all of us because there
[64:05]
is just saying that for
[64:08]
me there isn't room for
[64:14]
me I'm going to end it there hope you
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all have a good Sunday it's Sunday isn't
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it hope you had a good weekend