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good morning humans my camera came on
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all
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by that Bailey back there we're just
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chilling I don't have much to share with
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you today but I just love being on this
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camera I do I think I'm amazing I like
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seeing myself on
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camera oh deal with it I don't care
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about your
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judgments oh man so it's my last day
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here kind of sad
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my
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music I really like it here I think this
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place
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amazing okay I had to just shave cuz
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there was some hair coming out my little
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mole I couldn't have that not ashamed
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I'll keep my original intro but man that
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had to be shaved
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off um I
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use one of those hair clipping shaver
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things there's no attachments on it to
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shave so it's not a perfect solution
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you don't work so great so got to figure
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something out there you know this is
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just how you live out here hi buddy hi I
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got to give him his Fleet treatment I
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keep forgetting and he's out here I
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really need to deal with that
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so I'm not letting you out wait I could
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I probably I mean I do like have he's
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got a collar on I have a leash it's very
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wet out here though not a good idea
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buddy not today
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he's a good
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cat a lot to live with I even for a
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while there was like you know what I'm
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shipping this thing back to my mom I'm
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going to get it on an airplane somehow
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like this just has to happen but I don't
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know maybe it doesn't I do like having
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my cat with me I'm going to go shower in
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a minute cuz I didn't do that yesterday
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I I'm still wearing the same shirt
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whatever I just had one of those chill
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weekends I guess you know I I do love
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showers like so yeah I need to get down
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there I'm going to do that this morning
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anyway so what I was talking about
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um I loved it here all two weeks of
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being here was so
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wonderful oh I had so much
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fun in all kinds of ways you know I mean
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like I met that man that was fun up
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until it
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wasn't know just being on the ocean and
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at the cape and during the storms
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several storms we had so much fun here
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didn't we this place is
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amazing now I don't know what to do cuz
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like this was going to be my main base
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camp I was going to come back
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here but I just don't trust that man
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like my I just it's not about my
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personal safety cuz trust me I could
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take care of myself
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but oh man how to navigate that I just
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don't know you know like if he
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did something I'd obviously go straight
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to the
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police and there'd be a pretty clear
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through line of how this stuff happened
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right
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but I have cameras I'll get my camera
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set back up that's what I'll do okay
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there's always a solution what am I
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thinking okay I'll put my cameras back
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up of
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course um I don't know where I'll be
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tomorrow I have no money I have like
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less than a dollar in my bank accounts
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literally um so I'll end up on the side
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of a road my music's not
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on there we go um somewh on the 101 I'm
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okay with this though because actually
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this is the life I want like I this
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ocean like I can't even begin to tell
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you guys that Highway this ocean these
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cities these places like all of it just
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feels
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like there are no words like that's the
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life I want I want to be boondocking
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along the 101 all up and down this Coast
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but I have so much to learn before doing
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that and I'm just not totally prepared
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like my house batteries I know they're
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they're crap right so um that one
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component in the back car messed up
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leaving these lights
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on and those are going to need power or
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they're going to drain my house
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batteries if I'm not hooked up to power
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somewhere oh
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man but I have an inverter now I haven't
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used it yet haven't set it up I do have
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one though um I'll just navigate
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whatever comes that's what I'll do
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that's what I always do
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I'm getting back into work though um
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with you know the same person I worked
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with for 10 years this man's amazing and
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you know I had moments of Doubt but that
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was just me deep down I knew that's why
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I was able to trust it soone you know
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like
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just um didn't Panic cuz I drew trust I
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wonder if the wind if you can hear the
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wind cuz I could see the tree just
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swinging
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around um yeah
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maybe I'll leave it there for now I
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don't really I really don't have much to
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talk about so I'm doing it again I'm
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taking my videos and transcribing them
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and sharing them with
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AI uh it's just fun it gives us a place
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to start chatting and it said something
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to me that made me think okay I better
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clarify so this is how I look at this
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situation I have no money none I am owed
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money by my clients um I don't like
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wording it that way but you know that's
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that's the reality I guess and I just
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said I guess see we just talked about
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this yesterday I'm not I'm not hedging
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I'm not I'm not doing that anymore so I
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don't guess I know this I'm owed money
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okay but he might not have it in time so
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that means I end up on a road okay and
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the way I look at that is okay it's um
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this is life this is reality this is
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where I live right now this is the
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situation and let's make the best of it
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let's let's lean into that so if I end
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up there it just means that um I get to
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practice boondocking on the 101 which is
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the life I want the reason why I can't
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just jump right into that one prefer not
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to is because it is a lot to navigate I
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feel like I'm still learning so um you
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know there's a whole community of people
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who do that I know none of them I know
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none of the the unspoken rules um the
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places the you know all of it like I
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have so much to learn about that that's
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but this is how I learn right you guys
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watch me do that forever so
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um life throws me something at me and I
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just I just roll with it and I learned
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from that so if that's what happens
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that's what happens um but ultimately
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yes that is the life I want I don't want
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to be on campgrounds all the time except
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I haven't figured out the whole shower
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thing yet you know like I I mean yes
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it's been a couple days since I showered
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I already said this but that's not the
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norm I do go down there but it's just a
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it's a it's a it's a
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whole oh man where's my brain going I
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had these words I had
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them it's a production it is a
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production to go down there also they
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have shared showers and I hate that
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straight men think that gay men like
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that we hate it I take a
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pocket knife with me to the shower
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because of you people okay this is a
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fact so um you there's
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that um I'm trying to be chill cuz like
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I'm still let my core muscles healed but
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I'm going to end up over there you know
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looking at at the ocean cuz I always do
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I get this feel feels chaotic to you but
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in my world not chaotic at all total
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resident total
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Lake oh I should slow down
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night I'm just in a mood this morning
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I'm playful I'm feeling playful I I need
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I got playful energy and I need someone
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around to play with me I woke up this
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morning I was like you know what I need
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I need a man in his
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mid-30s maybe young 40s something like
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that right around my age pretty much
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right I'm 47 so um that's the energy I
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need I got a lesson for
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you I'm a bit nervous about tomorrow
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still going to do it going to lean into
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it what are you nervous
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about can you lean into it also