First Boondocking Day at Oregon Coast

Early morning before 5 AM on November 25, 2024. rswfire is in his RV at what appears to be a state campground, preparing to leave for his first boondocking experience on the Oregon coast. He's dealing with his cat Bailey, making coffee, and feeling nervous as evidenced by stumbling over words for the first time in 500+ videos.

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November 25, 2024

11:32

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rswfire

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[0:01] good morning fellow

[0:03] Hammond oh let me see if I can get that

[0:05] light out of the picture here I guess I

[0:08] sit over

[0:10] here bear with me I'm just waking up

[0:12] it's not even 5 in the morning yet it's

[0:15] almost

[0:19] 5

[0:20] so oh come on Bailey seriously I'm

[0:23] trying to do something serious to here

[0:24] today's important and here's my cat

[0:27] scene no I

[0:28] guess all right I guess this is how

[0:31] we're starting

[0:33] today today I get baptized by that thing

[0:36] out there the

[0:38] ocean cuz today I Boondock for the first

[0:41] time

[0:43] here I did stay on the side of the road

[0:46] one day when I first got to Oregon but

[0:48] it wasn't here on the coast I can't deal

[0:50] with this cat right now Bailey I can't

[0:52] deal with you all right cannot deal with

[0:54] you you're going to have a fine day let

[0:56] me deal with this I need some coffee

[0:58] also all right I'm making coffee bear

[1:01] with me let's start with the basic

[1:05] truth trust in yourself is

[1:10] not the absence of

[1:12] fear you can trust yourself fully and

[1:15] still experience it you want to know how

[1:17] I know this because that thing out there

[1:20] standing on the cliff edges reminded me

[1:22] of this cuz I trust myself I've trusted

[1:26] myself all of my life at the core of me

[1:30] is pure self

[1:32] trust and it took me a long time to

[1:34] figure that out to

[1:36] realize I I last night it just hit me

[1:39] it's like you know what I can't think of

[1:40] a time when I didn't trust myself

[1:42] underneath all of it and that's why I

[1:44] can do this and this is why you can do

[1:47] anything because I promise you

[1:49] underneath all of the layers of societal

[1:52] and the doubts and everything

[1:55] else there is

[1:57] trust so

[2:00] I've got this I know I've got this I

[2:02] woke up feeling existential tear this

[2:05] morning allowed myself to feel that and

[2:10] then started planning what am I going to

[2:12] do I still did not know where I was

[2:14] going did I just last night I realized

[2:16] where I was going to go I don't know

[2:18] like just to pull off where the area and

[2:21] this place makes a whole lot of sense to

[2:23] me because it's a place I love it's a

[2:26] place that my system flagged when I saw

[2:27] it like oh that's a potential place to

[2:29] stay

[2:32] and it's a place where I first communed

[2:36] with that

[2:37] thing it's the place where I first Trac

[2:39] the waves where I would go in as the

[2:42] waves were going out where I would go

[2:43] out as the waves were coming in where I

[2:45] would run my ass off when I misjudge

[2:47] laughing my ass off getting wet down to

[2:49] my knees it's where I first saw a river

[2:52] make love to an

[2:53] ocean it's where I first saw seals

[2:56] popping their little heads up in that

[2:58] area looking like Little Submarine men

[3:01] and me going what the is that cuz

[3:03] I'd never seen anything like it in my

[3:05] life thinking maybe I was hallucinating

[3:07] like what I had no idea what I was

[3:09] looking at my brain did not know how to

[3:11] process that and then asking AI what am

[3:15] I seeing right now and then once I'm

[3:18] like okay seals sounds safe enough

[3:21] seeing how playful these things

[3:23] are I fell in love with the ocean that

[3:25] day and that's where we're going we're

[3:28] going to the place where

[3:32] or this place claim me and I claimed it

[3:36] back and I have a lot of trust in

[3:41] that

[3:43] so whatever happens today I am

[3:45] boondocking on the side of the 101 I

[3:47] will be on a pull out cu even if I get

[3:50] paid today by my client by the time that

[3:52] I am I'll probably already be on the

[3:54] road I have and why waste the money if

[3:57] I'm you know we're doing this this is

[4:00] what we're doing today it's already a

[4:01] thing this is a thing we're doing

[4:05] so just I'm not going to pretend I'm Not

[4:08] Afraid cuz I am but I've made the

[4:11] decision and I actually feel a lot more

[4:14] centered now because this is a thing

[4:17] this is what we're doing

[4:18] so um next comes all the Practical stuff

[4:22] so I got a

[4:23] shower got a breakdown Camp which that's

[4:26] not a lot for me youall know that very

[4:29] easy

[4:32] um I'd love to have breakfast but I

[4:35] don't really have anything and no money

[4:37] so I don't really know what I'm doing

[4:38] with that I'll make like lunch or dinner

[4:41] later I've got some frozen fish and um

[4:46] I've got some quarters I could get

[4:47] something in town like this is how my

[4:49] brain works I want you to hear the

[4:51] truth cuz I have nothing easy to cook

[4:57] and if it's not easy to cook I'm not

[4:59] going to be doing it

[5:01] so like I have a few things maybe

[5:03] oatmeal I can't even see myself eating

[5:05] that

[5:06] so I got it because maybe one day right

[5:09] but not no I I'd rather starve to make

[5:11] that maybe one day that's how my

[5:13] brain works so I guess it's just coffee

[5:17] and you know what I should probably plug

[5:18] the coffee maker in so that it actually

[5:20] does something right oh man I could

[5:23] really use some

[5:25] coffee

[5:27] okay now we're going

[5:31] okay

[5:34] um I do have this I'm going to be all

[5:37] right I trust myself when I get to this

[5:39] spot I pinned it on my map I I I saw

[5:42] this pull out and when I saw that pull

[5:44] out just something told me that's where

[5:46] I'm going to end up and that's how I

[5:49] trust my intuition too you know that's a

[5:52] big part of me it's not just I'm got

[5:53] feeling it's a thing

[5:56] that um that helps me navigate life

[5:59] every day because I trust it

[6:02] because I've learned to trust it you can

[6:04] do that too I promise you you

[6:07] can I'm not saying it's easy none of

[6:10] this is

[6:12] easy I'm saying you can do

[6:15] it just like I

[6:19] am not bad

[6:22] man let me tell you my

[6:27] secret I don't know how I M

[6:30] this I know that you can though cuz I

[6:33] have how do I do this it's simple I hold

[6:37] space for what I'm feeling I feel fear I

[6:41] feel trust I feel excitement I feel so

[6:43] many things and I hold space for it I

[6:46] don't fight it I just let it be a part

[6:50] of my

[6:52] day you can do

[6:56] that cuz why fight it what's that going

[6:58] to do where's it going to

[7:00] go somewhere in my life I learned to

[7:04] just hold space for

[7:08] it that's my secret

[7:10] weapon and I'm giving I'm giving it to

[7:13] you it's going to be a real chaotic

[7:15] video today sorry guys but you know

[7:17] that's me

[7:18] right I got my coffee done here oh it's

[7:22] really good today even being dripped

[7:24] coffee is actually pretty damn

[7:26] good I don't know why I did different a

[7:29] little bit more creamer probably

[7:31] probably like half hazelnut creamer cuz

[7:33] I just love that

[7:36] um it's going to be a busy morning

[7:39] so being broke sucks I don't have any

[7:42] Vapes so like and this is almost gone

[7:44] and go check my Jeep and see if I've got

[7:46] any like half mostly empty cartridges to

[7:49] help me get through this

[7:51] thing I really don't want to have to

[7:54] navigate this day navigating like with

[7:58] the draw from that or whatever I don't

[8:00] know I think I'm getting close to being

[8:03] ready to quit that uh the last time I

[8:05] bought them I I even thought about not

[8:07] doing so and just seeing how it went but

[8:10] I don't think I'm there yet

[8:12] so um so practical things I know I

[8:16] mentioned the shower and breaking camp

[8:18] but I got to tidy up in here you know

[8:21] make sure that there's nothing that's

[8:23] going to go phone while we're driving

[8:25] I'm going to need to empty my tanks I'm

[8:27] just going to go to a state park on the

[8:28] way and do that I think that you can

[8:30] probably just go there and do it I don't

[8:32] think that they complain about it and

[8:34] I'm you know I just spent two weeks at

[8:35] this state campground that doesn't have

[8:37] them and they put up signs where you can

[8:39] do it so I think you can probably just

[8:41] go and do it um we'll navigate that edge

[8:44] when we get there somebody says

[8:46] something you know or

[8:47] whatever um I picked my pull out spot if

[8:52] it's busy if it's taken you know what if

[8:55] there's a person there like all these

[8:56] thoughts are going through my head but

[8:58] you know

[9:00] we'll navigate it I pick my spot so

[9:02] that's my next destination this is also

[9:04] how this works for me I don't have a

[9:05] backup plan I didn't pick a second pull

[9:07] out I picked a spot I picked my spot and

[9:11] that's where I'm going and if that

[9:12] spot's taken taken then I will

[9:15] just

[9:16] um find the next one you know this is

[9:19] how I work set a destination for

[9:23] yourself make container for your

[9:25] feelings just just let them be part of

[9:28] the day with you and move forward it's

[9:31] that simple

[9:33] guys so I think this is actually really

[9:36] important cuz I do this with everything

[9:38] I never have a backup plan you guys have

[9:40] probably seen it more clearly than I

[9:42] have I don't

[9:43] know um I mean I don't know there that's

[9:46] not hedging I I generally don't know

[9:52] um this is how I navigate

[9:55] life I pick a

[9:58] destination and I put my full force my

[10:00] full force behind that and then if I get

[10:04] to that destination and for whatever

[10:07] reason that just doesn't feel like that

[10:11] that's working then you pick the next

[10:13] one I do this with everything I've

[10:16] literally just trusted that my boss is

[10:18] going to pay me I have no money and no

[10:22] other plans and I know that a lot of you

[10:24] would think that was was is reckless I

[10:27] can't believe I can't talk today that's

[10:28] so funny this that's how nervous I am

[10:30] cuz you guys have never heard me stumble

[10:32] with my words once in 8 months

[10:34] have you over 500 videos I don't stumble

[10:37] with words but I am this

[10:40] morning

[10:43] um I get that you might think that's

[10:46] reckless but I'm 47 years old and

[10:48] somehow that's works for me here I am

[10:52] living in an RV that I bought with a

[10:54] jeep that I

[10:57] love living the life that makes me feel

[11:00] the most

[11:01] alive pick a destination and move

[11:03] towards

[11:05] it this is why it's important because I

[11:07] put my intention behind everything this

[11:09] is

[11:11] intentional backup plans are like

[11:14] saying to yourself that that first

[11:18] option it's like it's a way of

[11:20] fragmenting yourself that's what it is

[11:22] it's

[11:23] fragmentation I don't fragment anything

[11:26] I move forward as One Sovereign being

[11:30] I want to see you do that

Energetic Signature nervous but resolute

Field State threshold crossing

Orientation toward complete self-reliance and land embedding

Summary

rswfire prepares for his first boondocking experience on the Oregon coast, specifically at a pullout near Highway 101 where he previously connected with the ocean. He wakes before 5 AM feeling existential fear but maintains self-trust, describing how he doesn't make backup plans and moves forward as "one sovereign being." He discusses practical preparations including showering, breaking camp, emptying tanks, and dealing with being broke while waiting for client payment. **Key decision**: He selected a specific pullout spot based on intuition where he first experienced the ocean, saw seals, and watched a river meet the ocean. He emphasizes his approach of holding space for all feelings (fear, trust, excitement) without fighting them, and explains his philosophy of picking one destination and putting full intention behind it rather than fragmenting with backup plans.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

This transmission demonstrates the architectural principle of non-fragmentation through a real-time threshold crossing. The field is holding complete intentional coherence while navigating fear and uncertainty, using the ocean as both symbolic anchor and literal destination for first boondocking experience.

Dominant Language

trust myself one sovereign being non-fragmentation full force hold space pick a destination intentional

Symbolic Elements

ocean threshold cliff waves baptism communion seals river-ocean convergence

Ontological States

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sovereign
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transitional
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coherent
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trusting

Subsystems

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cognitive
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somatic
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emotional
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infrastructural

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Video Quality

1280 × 720 @ 30fps

Duration

11:32

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