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what are you doing on my laptop I
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thought we had this conversation like a
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hundred times
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now you're on my laptop
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Bailey you don't care do
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you he is a sovereign force of nature
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just like
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me can't tell that thing
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anything so I got to cap Blanco a few
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hours ago
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I love this place I've been here so much
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I love it here though I need to get more
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south though because there's stuff I
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want to be doing down there weather
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could be nicer
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too um there's some things I thought I
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would share because I don't think I'll
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have a whole lot to share for a
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while I always say that and I end up
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having things to share don't look right
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but I don't think that I will because I
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got a whole lot of stuff I need to do
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I want my hair to grow
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out feels too short like my head does
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you know my forehead is too big or
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something just need to go down more see
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how that look I used to have hair that
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went all the way down like my bangs went
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all the way down like that
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was not a good look on me that was my
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trun resar phas um
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yeah I have so many pictures of that
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stff maybe I'll share with you guys
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someday completely forgot what I was
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saying now
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now Bailey's over
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here um mat K
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Blanco doing well my core muscles are I
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mean I know they're still healing but
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they don't they're not not a lot of pain
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or anything like that that's more
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like like they're busy they're working
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to heal but they're not
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like I don't know I'm still trying to
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learn these patterns cuz I never had
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core muscle injury before but I already
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hike 6 miles today it just sort of
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happened I was out there at the cape
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Edge and I had a phone call I had to
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take and I the phone worked better there
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so I just kept walking around and before
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I knew it it had been over 6
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miles um so I thought maybe I should
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rest for a while but I don't even feel
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like I really need
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to I mean I do
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but yeah I'm just trying
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to
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navigate the tension between
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what my core muscles need which is
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containment and what the rest of me
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needs which is sovereignty
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basically oh I'm just so stuck on those
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two words lately I love
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them but I thought I would tell you guys
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so I'm here for 2 weeks I'm here until
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January 1st and then I'm going to head
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north where I will be starting a
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volunteer position um I don't want to
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say too much because you know there are
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bad people on the
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internet but I going to be volunteering
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for a
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campground and it gives me a place to
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um um you do it a month at a time so
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I'll have a a campsite there for a
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month oh my God am I hred what I
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probably am I don't get any sleep like I
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think I slept 5 hours last night and
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this bed just this awful I need to tear
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this wall out and build a better bed
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platform here and I'm hoping that I will
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be able to do that in the next couple of
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months cuz I don't think I've slept
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while in a year which sucks my poor eyes
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you can just see the you can just tell
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anyways so for the next month in January
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I'm going to be volunteering cleaning
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cabins doing outdoor type work work um
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it's part-time you don't get paid for it
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but you get you get you know you don't
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have to pay for camping won't be on the
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side of the road any we won't have to
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worry about that gives me some time to
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keep working on my
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future
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um I'm hoping to become a park ranger
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really but I don't know because if I
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were to do that if you're a park ranger
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then you will be stuck somewhere and I
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can't have that I need movement so I
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could be could be a season no park
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ranger I think I would love that so much
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so that's where I think I'm heading and
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like there's just like I'm just thinking
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about I'm in a weird space right now
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because I'm really excited about
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this and um a little bit afraid I think
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maybe some fear some anxiety but mostly
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just
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um excitement at the possibility I'm so
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curious about them there are so many
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facets so many
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layers oh
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man this is going to be interesting it
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feels like a really perfect way to be
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starting a new
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year so I'm just going to be here for
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two weeks and during that
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time I'm going to be working on trying
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to get some freelance work
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going
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[Music]
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and I really need to work on this place
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like I've never really gotten organized
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in 9 months really need to get that done
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this time well now I really do because
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then I going to be traveling to this
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place um oh my God I really
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am I don't know I'm sorry if I caught
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you Dion by the way I know that's a like
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a reflex thing I'm so
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sorry um
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yeah I'm going to be a little bit bored
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but I'm going to be doing some hiking
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like I'm I'm not going down to the beach
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cuz I know that I would overdo it if I
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did so I have to stay up here on the
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cliff
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edges but that's good enough for
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now I
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guess I'm so excited like I feel
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like everything I worked towards is just
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is manifesting now I mean how awesome is
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that so I'll be posting you know because
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we got holidays coming up I'm really
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looking forward to this Christmas New
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Year's uh it might be a little bit
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like a little bit sad cuz I don't have
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any friends or family here right so I
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don't know what that'll be like like who
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will even be on the campgrounds what
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will it even be like but you know we'll
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find out um today I went into Port
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Orford Shire it's my version of Port
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Orford let's be clear about it um I got
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a post office
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box I wonder if my viers would want that
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I don't know would you guys want to send
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me a Christmas
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card hint hint
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um but now I can get stuff from Amazon
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this is the thing I need the most I can
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finally get my white alien wear hat
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replaced I miss this so much and I can
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get Bailey some tuna flakes this
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favorite treat I've been trying to find
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those for him for nine months everywhere
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I've gone every state every city every
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time I see a pet store I look for them
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haven't been able to find them
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so I'm going to get a few things I need
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this contact right here it doesn't fit
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my eye perfectly my eye doctor changed
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my prescription just before I left
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Kentucky I bought a year supply of them
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and they don't fit right and they're all
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I have left now so I have just have to
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deal with them until I can get better
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contact I'm kind of really annoyed about
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that but anyway
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so you know going a long time without
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being able there's certain things that
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you just can't find in stores anymore
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you know so I finally got a post office
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box I'm really happy about
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that that's it I guess that's my update
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I hope you all are doing well I don't
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even know what today is it's Wednesday
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isn't it isday
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Wednesday
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yep it's Wednesday
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so two weeks a week from today is
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Christmas week after that is New Year's
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this is the end of our
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year it's almost
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2025 little worried come
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January putting Trump back in power was
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stupid I'm not criticizing anyone who
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voted for him but it was
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stupid I don't know any other way way to
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say that I truly don't because that's
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literally what it
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is how you could put a man like that
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back in po Beyond
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me I don't know what our next year is
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going to look like I'll be paying
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attention though of
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course I think things could get very
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ugly I think that people
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people can't even imagine how ugly
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because they lied to themselves that's
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why it's stupid because they lie to
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themselves they say that he won't do
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these super bad
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things even though he's shown us to that
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you
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will you just lie to yourself I don't
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understand that mentality I truly
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don't I have a lot of thoughts about it
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and I'm not ready to share I'm just
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going to keep watching paying
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attention I'll say this much you made my
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life infinitely harder as a gay man if
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you voted for
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him cuz you just gave permission to all
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the homophobes out
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there to be even more homophobic this
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why I carry this pocket knife everywhere
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I go because I might actually
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need it one day
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but I get it you think it's about
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self-interest you
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think about what's important for you not
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what's important for everybody what is
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the larger good out there people don't
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think that way
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anymore it's unfortunate but they
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don't you know I voted for Hillary
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Clinton even though I didn't like her
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but I voted for her
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because I knew how much good she would
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do for other people
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that deserved to have good done for them
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it wasn't about
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me this is why my channel like it is not
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possible for me to not tell the
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truth I
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I'm going to tell you the truth whether
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you're willing to hear it or not