New Year's Eve: Stargazing Encounter and Campground Transition

Tugman Campground State Park near Lakeside, Oregon Coast. Van-based nomadic dwelling transitioning to stationary campground hosting. Physical setting: campground with day-use area, dunes, beach access 10-15 minutes away. Temporal: New Year's Eve 2024, eve of major role transition. Social context: populated with van lifers and car campers; rswfire documenting via video/audio capture for YouTube channel with members-only tier.

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December 31, 2024

13:37

Author

rswfire

Status

PUBLISHED

Type

TRANSMISSION (CAPTURE)

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[0:00] not feeling it's pretty today went after

[0:03] showering and shaving and trying a new

[0:08] haircut get this pretty earring over

[0:10] here I do love that one guess I look

[0:13] okay it's New Year's

[0:16] Eve if you watch my last video I was

[0:19] thinking about I'm not trying to be a

[0:20] Doner to you guys I'm just processing my

[0:23] life in real time so um there's a lot

[0:26] that I hold every day we got to go into

[0:29] the town and get some things F

[0:31] supplies there's a lot of people here

[0:33] today they showed up yesterday like

[0:35] dozens of them all kinds of van lifers

[0:39] and car

[0:41] campers um not a whole lot of RVs a few

[0:45] but just a lot of people for New Year's

[0:48] so I found that interesting cuz the

[0:50] Park's been pretty empty

[0:52] so I assume they're staying tonight

[0:58] too then tomorrow tomorrow is a big day

[1:00] for me so something happened last night

[1:03] up at the day use area when I was there

[1:06] last night 2 in the morning another

[1:07] vehicle showed up

[1:10] and they went to the other side of it

[1:13] and they just went dark turned

[1:14] everything off which you know makes a

[1:16] lot of sense if you're I was a perfect

[1:18] night for

[1:19] stargazing um with

[1:21] a forget what it's called

[1:24] now dark moon or something like

[1:27] that it's a kind of Moon where

[1:31] it's very rare but um you can't see it

[1:34] so the sky was clear anyways so they're

[1:38] just hanging out there and they've got

[1:39] this light it's it's green like it's a

[1:42] laser and they're just shooting it up at

[1:44] the sky towards different stars and this

[1:47] thing is a powerful void penetrating

[1:48] device this thing's pretty cool I had my

[1:51] lights on because you know I wasn't

[1:53] really sure if we're supposed to be up

[1:54] there that late and I just wasn't trying

[1:56] to look like I was just being myself

[2:00] that's how I am but you know I'm

[2:01] watching them do this I'm like okay I'm

[2:03] just going to give them Darkness because

[2:05] you know I can see what they're doing so

[2:06] I turn my vehicle off I get out and I

[2:08] just go and I look at the stars and then

[2:11] whoever this person is starts coming

[2:13] towards

[2:14] me

[2:16] um I just say hello you know and they

[2:19] stop they turn around like and they

[2:21] start pointing their light at me and

[2:23] stuff and I'm just looking at them like

[2:25] you know you could just say hello or you

[2:26] can be an I'm just standing

[2:28] there in my full sovereign watching them

[2:30] be a dumbass ready for whatever

[2:32] happens but not really thinking that

[2:34] anything bad is happening just thinking

[2:37] that this guy's being pretty

[2:38] weird you know um and then they left

[2:43] so yeah I don't know I just thought I

[2:45] would share that I shed with AI and it

[2:47] was

[2:49] like all weird on me about it but you

[2:53] know I just see it as a

[2:56] preview of the world that we're going to

[2:58] be inhabiting soon enough

[3:00] where everybody is a threat and you just

[3:03] got to stand up and claim your space

[3:06] people who don't like it there's

[3:09] actually another angle to this too

[3:11] because and we're the only ones up there

[3:13] in the middle of the night the day

[3:15] before KN Year's Eve perfect sky and

[3:19] rather than just trying to greet another

[3:22] Soul who

[3:26] clearly I mean that was a perfect

[3:29] opportunity just to make a new friend or

[3:30] whatever just somebody new to talk to

[3:33] who clearly has a similar interest to

[3:35] you instead of being weird

[3:39] and you know scared and just running off

[3:42] cuz that's what

[3:44] happened

[3:47] um that's part of the problem with the

[3:50] world is people just don't know how to

[3:51] connect anymore why are you

[3:53] being weird with your little

[3:54] flashlight like I'm standing right here

[3:57] looking up at the stars being fully

[4:00] present in the

[4:01] moment or just being a child like I just

[4:04] I don't understand that I don't

[4:06] understand why people are like

[4:08] this but you know

[4:10] whatever I mean I made the viewing

[4:12] conditions better for this person and

[4:15] instead of just enjoying the moment they

[4:18] just start getting weird like I just

[4:20] don't understand people why are people

[4:22] so weird looks like most of the

[4:25] van lifers are gone already I just got

[4:27] back from the store I sometimes just

[4:30] come and stay

[4:31] overnight um doesn't give you long

[4:34] enough to find out if they're attractive

[4:35] or

[4:36] not so yeah I don't know what they do

[4:40] here maybe they just come to shower and

[4:42] get some power and all that kind of

[4:44] stuff then they're off doing their Nomad

[4:47] thing met someone yesterday I was

[4:50] walking the campground Trail or the

[4:52] campground

[4:53] Loop and there was this guy he just kind

[4:56] of was in a truck camper and he just

[4:58] walked out in front of me he walking

[5:00] kind of slow so we're kind of walking

[5:02] together because we're just going around

[5:03] a loop and we near where the hosts are

[5:07] at and I see him he's just acting real

[5:09] slow and I'm not sure what he's doing

[5:12] I'm thinking maybe this man wants

[5:13] campfire wood so I taught him there's if

[5:16] you need campfire what is right there I

[5:17] pointed at the guy that you can get it

[5:19] from this guy it was like he was annoyed

[5:23] that I ackowledge his existence he was

[5:25] like nope I'm like okay I just kept

[5:27] walking on like it's pretty rude

[5:31] so

[5:35] yeah it's get you know I understand why

[5:38] people are getting to the point where

[5:39] they're like not even trying but you got

[5:41] to keep trying because otherwise

[5:44] nobody's trying and we end up where we

[5:46] are today

[5:47] right my thermostat says it's 82° in

[5:51] here and I'm

[5:52] cold which it's because there's like

[5:54] drafts or something but I have no idea

[5:56] where they come

[5:58] from it's 8 two in here and I'm I'm cold

[6:01] right now like you know

[6:08] what that I'll be too warm after I put

[6:11] this

[6:13] on I've been using it to dry my hands

[6:16] it's a little bit wet after I wash my

[6:19] hands treating it like it's a tow or

[6:21] something

[6:24] whatever got to be careful with the

[6:27] earrings I got to do that with care

[6:33] I thought I would try to share

[6:36] something um well I want to

[6:40] explain what's going to happen on my

[6:42] membership

[6:44] Channel um and why I needed to be

[6:47] different so I'm going to share some

[6:50] things that I've been grappling with

[6:51] that I don't talk about on

[6:54] YouTube so the first one is the fact

[6:56] that I don't know how to

[6:57] compartmentalize I'm not even sure I

[6:59] have the brain chemistry for

[7:03] it I genely do not compartmentalize I

[7:07] think a lot of people watch my channel

[7:08] and think that's but it's just

[7:10] thing I just I can't do

[7:13] it so I

[7:16] get you know trollish comments and well

[7:19] I you know they're not those comments

[7:25] don't like somebody criticizes me I can

[7:28] see right through it but still be super

[7:30] irritated by it you know it's

[7:31] just just how I

[7:33] am um and I got to process that out of

[7:37] my body cuz my emotions are always on so

[7:40] it's just thing I hate I hate that about

[7:42] YouTube and it has made

[7:45] me I've seen how is it's changed me as

[7:49] I'm posting on here I've seen

[7:51] how it made me hate my audience you know

[7:54] I was telling them to unsubscribe at one

[7:56] point before I left when I was leaving

[7:57] Kentucky just get off my channel go like

[8:00] cuz I just

[8:02] couldn't I couldn't stand the toxicity

[8:05] people don't understand they don't

[8:06] respect boundaries and it's just

[8:09] like for someone like me that's just not

[8:12] acceptable

[8:13] so I really grappled with how to remain

[8:16] on YouTube I'm glad I did though because

[8:18] I made it to this point where maybe I

[8:21] can make a more intentional community

[8:27] so because I don't compartment

[8:30] ize I couldn't figure out how am I going

[8:32] to share my life when I'm starting a new

[8:35] chapter where I'm going to be stationary

[8:38] at a state

[8:40] campground and you know I didn't want to

[8:42] just reveal that to the whole

[8:45] public and yet how do you keep that a

[8:47] secret really and still share your life

[8:49] like I was really struggling with how am

[8:50] I going to deal with that this is how

[8:52] I'm going to do it I'll never mention on

[8:54] my main

[8:57] Channel where I'm staying so so but I'll

[9:00] tell you here so I'm going to be at

[9:02] tugman Campground State

[9:04] Park I'm not exactly sure where it is

[9:07] it's

[9:08] near Lakeside it's actually on this map

[9:12] Lakeside um there's I haven't seen the

[9:14] town yet I did go up there on Christmas

[9:16] Eve and checked out the campground and

[9:17] did some stuff up there but I didn't see

[9:19] this the town Lakeside yet um it's just

[9:22] a little town it looked very cute I'm

[9:24] looking forward to seeing

[9:26] it uh there's Dunes on the other side of

[9:28] the 101

[9:30] like this whole area is just um it's

[9:33] just Dunes I want to get a dune buggy

[9:35] and go do some stuff with that and then

[9:38] this little thing right here I don't

[9:40] know what you call that I know that it's

[9:45] um well I don't think that's manmade but

[9:47] there's well we'll talk about that

[9:49] another day but that's where the beach

[9:50] is at that's probably the one place

[9:52] where I'm going to be able to get to the

[9:53] beach cuz there's nothing cuz the dunes

[9:56] are in the way there were no Trails I

[9:58] was up there looking all all over and it

[9:59] feels like that's the spot that's where

[10:01] I'm going to be able to get to the beach

[10:03] and that's like 10 or 15 minutes away

[10:06] from where I'll be staying this contact

[10:07] mess with me

[10:09] today

[10:10] so I can't control who's going to

[10:13] subscribe to this if there's some troll

[10:15] or somebody with ill intent who wants to

[10:18] they're just going to pay the price and

[10:20] they'll know where I'm at can't avoid

[10:23] that but I can at least limit it so what

[10:25] I would ask is just be careful what you

[10:28] say I'm my channel when you're

[10:30] commenting make sure that if you're

[10:32] mentioning something that I'm kind of

[10:35] sensitive about that you're

[10:38] commenting on a member's only post and

[10:41] not you know a public post so

[10:45] um you know just try I'm not saying

[10:49] anybody needs to be perfect I mean if I

[10:51] was really trying to prevent that kind

[10:54] of knowledge I wouldn't say it at all

[10:56] right so but I'd been grappling with how

[10:58] am I going to handle that and this feels

[11:00] like a good balance for

[11:04] me I think there was something else give

[11:06] me a minute okay there were a couple of

[11:09] things

[11:11] um I don't don't have any of this

[11:13] planned out of

[11:15] course next one though that's the sadle

[11:18] claps you know that I talk about this

[11:19] you know that this is something I'm very

[11:20] concerned

[11:23] about I don't think

[11:26] that first of all people need to

[11:28] understand that this is not political

[11:30] for me I don't really give a what

[11:32] party you're a part of and all of that

[11:34] I'm just looking at the larger patterns

[11:36] and how things play out

[11:38] and I'm going to talk about that on the

[11:41] members only side of things it's not

[11:43] meant

[11:45] to um it's not meant to make anyone feel

[11:48] defensive or feel like they're being

[11:51] attacked or anything like that cuz it's

[11:53] not political I'm just looking at life

[11:56] realistically cuz that's just how my

[11:58] brain works

[11:59] if I see

[12:03] something I'm going to face it directly

[12:05] and I will hope that my viewers would do

[12:07] the same cuz I'm not here to attack

[12:09] anybody I'm just

[12:10] here to

[12:13] navigate what's coming and it's scary

[12:16] and it's going to be hard and we're

[12:17] going to need each other

[12:20] so that's part of it too like trying to

[12:23] build an intentional Community because

[12:25] that Community might actually be needed

[12:32] um I mean my thoughts on this run deep

[12:36] it's going to take me time to to share

[12:39] that with

[12:40] you and then the third thing is just

[12:42] kind of a personal update I'm pretty

[12:44] nervous about tomorrow I'm very excited

[12:45] but I'm super

[12:47] nervous uh cuz I'm going to drive there

[12:50] I'm going to park in a campground host

[12:53] spot which you know that's like that

[12:57] alone is I'm becoming part of the

[13:00] infrastructure

[13:02] I'm it's like almost like claiming space

[13:05] in an official capacity

[13:08] and man like that feels like a big deal

[13:11] and then there's five other yeah F wait

[13:15] yeah five other um volunteer hosts I'm

[13:17] going to have to be friends with all of

[13:19] them then there's all the park rangers

[13:21] and then there's the public who's going

[13:23] to be coming to me with questions I

[13:24] can't even imagine this but you know um

[13:28] I'm

[13:30] very excited about it and and

[13:33] exceptionally nervous so I'm

[13:35] just going to leave it there for now

Energetic Signature resolute, unfiltered

Field State transitional

Orientation toward infrastructural embedding and intentional community building

Summary

rswfire documents New Year's Eve at a coastal campground, reflecting on a nighttime encounter at a day-use area where another vehicle arrived at 2 AM with a green laser pointer directed at stars. rswfire turned off his vehicle lights to improve viewing conditions, approached the other person to greet them, and the person responded by pointing the laser at him before leaving. rswfire processes this as a preview of increasing social friction and missed connection opportunities. He then describes a separate interaction with a truck camper resident who rejected his offer of information about campfire wood. rswfire transitions to announcing his relocation to Tugman Campground State Park near Lakeside, Oregon, starting tomorrow (January 1st), where he will serve as a volunteer campground host alongside five other hosts, park rangers, and public interaction. He explains his decision to keep the specific location off his main YouTube channel while sharing it on his membership channel, citing his inability to compartmentalize information. He also previews upcoming membership-only content addressing his non-compartmentalizing cognition, his concerns about societal collapse patterns, and his nervousness about assuming an official infrastructure role. rswfire expresses both excitement and significant anxiety about the transition.

Signal Analysis

Substrate

rswfire is documenting the architecture of a major life transition—moving from nomadic van life to stationary campground hosting—while simultaneously processing the non-compartmentalization of his consciousness as a structural condition, not a deficiency. The signal holds two simultaneous movements: claiming official infrastructure role (campground host) while protecting sovereignty through selective disclosure (members-only channel). This is infrastructure development under constraint, with clear-eyed pattern recognition about social dysfunction and coming systemic pressure.

Dominant Language

sovereignty, claiming space, official capacity connection, people being weird, social dysfunction pattern recognition, facing things directly, larger patterns infrastructure, intentional community, what's coming compartmentalization, processing, boundaries nervous, excited, big deal

Entities

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beings

person with laser pointer

encountered at day-use area 2 AM; demonstrated social dysfunction; missed opportunity for connection

truck camper person

encountered on campground loop; rejected acknowledgment; exemplified social avoidance

five volunteer hosts

colleagues rswfire will work with at Tugman; relational infrastructure

park rangers

institutional authority figures at Tugman; part of official infrastructure

van lifers and car campers

transient population at campground; social observation point

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places

Tugman Campground State Park

destination campground near Lakeside, Oregon; rswfire's new stationary base; location of campground hosting role

Lakeside

small town near Tugman Campground; not yet visited; represents local infrastructure and community

Oregon Coast

regional setting; dunes, beach access, ecological context

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systems

YouTube channel

primary platform; source of toxicity and audience friction; now bifurcated with members-only tier

members-only channel

new tier for protected sharing; space for non-compartmentalized processing; boundary-setting mechanism

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concepts

dark moon

astronomical condition enabling stargazing; rare sky clarity

saddle collapse

pattern rswfire is concerned about; non-political systemic observation; topic for members-only discussion

intentional community

goal being built; response to coming systemic pressure; relational infrastructure

Actions

Performed

• showered and shaved
• tried new haircut
• went to town for supplies
• turned off vehicle lights at day-use area
• got out and looked at stars
• said hello to person with laser pointer
• stood in sovereign presence
• walked campground loop
• pointed person toward campfire wood
• put on wet hand-drying garment
• adjusted earrings carefully
• recorded this transmission

Referenced

• watched last video about thinking
• went to day-use area at 2 AM
• encountered vehicle with green laser pointer
• person pointed laser at rswfire
• person left
• met truck camper person on campground loop
• person acted annoyed at acknowledgment
• left Kentucky
• told audience to unsubscribe
• visited Tugman Campground on Christmas Eve
• looked for trails to beach
• grappled with compartmentalization and YouTube toxicity

Planned

• drive to Tugman Campground tomorrow
• park in campground host spot
• work with five volunteer hosts
• interact with park rangers
• answer public questions
• share grappling topics on members-only channel
• discuss saddle collapse patterns
• build intentional community
• get dune buggy and explore dunes
• access beach via marked spot
• remain stationary at state campground
• keep main channel location undisclosed

Symbolic Elements

threshold (New Year's Eve, moving to new location, taking official role) infrastructure (campground host position, claiming space in official capacity) light (laser stargazing, visibility, being seen) boundary (dunes, beach access, marked terrain) grid (campground layout, state park system, official structure)

Ontological States

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sovereign (refusing compartmentalization, claiming space officially)
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embedded (transitioning into infrastructural role and place-based community)
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transitional (between nomadic and stationary phases)
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coherent (integrating emotional, cognitive, and somatic systems without fragmentation)

Subsystems

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infrastructural (primary focus: campground hosting role, state park system, physical placement)
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relational (functional contrast: attempting connection vs. encountering social dysfunction)
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cognitive (pattern recognition: observing larger systemic patterns, non-compartmentalization)
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somatic (embodied signal: cold despite 82°, physical grooming, presence)
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emotional (fully integrated, not pathologized: intensity as clarity)
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ethical (boundary-setting, intentional community building, refusing toxicity)
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temporal (major transition point, nervous about tomorrow, building toward future)

Signal Reflection

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Transmission Details

Source Type

local

Video Quality

1920 × 1080 @ 30fps

Duration