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we're heading north to Reedsport to do
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laundry I just went into
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Lakeside CU I was going to do laundry
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there but it took me to my GPS took me
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to a RV park it didn't seem right I
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suspect it probably was but um we're
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just going to go on read sport to normal
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laundromat technically I can do laundry
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at the campground I think I have to go
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to umwa though to do it and you have to
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sign in up and you know after
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orientation I'll learn about all that
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but for now we got to go do laundry the
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traditional way The Nomad traditional
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way Lakeside is so cool by the
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way I'm going to have to get some video
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of that place that place has a Vibe oh
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my God it was so cool let's go see what
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reads for this
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L my new home it gets flooded
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here lots of
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rain William tugman State Park
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I have a feeling I like umwa lighthouse
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we got to go there today that's where
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orientation is at I was looking at some
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stuff on the
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map I have a feeling that's the way
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better
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part
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so might try to end up
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there same boss if I do so we'll
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see I did email though I was like can I
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be at gatekeeper this summer I would
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love to just be in that little building
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right there causing
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chaos I'm just sitting here I got 15
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minutes before I got to go to Umpa
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Lighthouse and get ready for
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disorientation and I'm ridiculously
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nervous which I don't understand that
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I'm just sitting here talking to AI
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about it
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cuz this is not even a paid job like
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what the like I
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I don't like what's happening around
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here I'll just leave like it's that
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simple this
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is not even a great camping spot this is
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not even where I
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would choose to be I was paying for a
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place I won't be
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here so I don't understand
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like I'm just anticipating lots of
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different things cuz I know how people
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are and i' had forgotten like this this
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job comes with a social network I'm G to
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have to
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navigate and I'm like
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man we'll see how it goes though because
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I'm just going to be myself and if
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someone has a problem with that then I
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just go because I'm
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not I'm not going to let them make me
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smaller it took me a lot of time and
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effort to become as integrated as I am
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to completely accept myself the way I am
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I'm not going to have somebody tell me
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there's something wrong with me or
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unprofessional because I don't do things
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their
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way that would be
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unacceptable that's the
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line for
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we're out here by
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ourself after 3-hour orientation I got a
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cool hat though I'm keeping this hat
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forever that's my hat
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now I love this
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hat they complain about me wearing it
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when I'm not on duty I'll tell them I'll
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quit cuz I'm keeping this hat
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and I'm wearing it
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forever this is my hat
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now oh that was an interesting day oh
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man
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man it went
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okay they made us go around the room
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introducing ourselves when they got to
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me I looked at my boss and I was like
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this is the most awkward thing you could
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have asked me to do the whole room
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started
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laughing oh and then I was just like I'm
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Sam I'm a nomad I stare at the ocean
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that was basically all I
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said what else
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happened that was so long she put a pict
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of a bunch of keys up on the screen I'm
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like I'm not going to remember this I
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got to take a picture cuz they gave us a
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bunch of
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keys
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um it's mostly fine but you
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know I was being my authentic self I was
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mostly just chilling the whole time and
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listening and watching and you know
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pattern matching and doing the things
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that I
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do I think she picked up on it like I'm
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not your average host like don't even
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don't try to put me in a
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box I'm off for a couple days so it's
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Thursday I my first day is Sunday
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they're going to train me that day oh I
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volunteered to deep clean a yurt nobody
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else volunteered so I said okay I'll do
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it
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um oh that was something else too oh
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they made us do these team building
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exercises and she's like does any anyone
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want to read their question first I'm
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like I'll do it why not like cuz
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everybody's just like I don't even know
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like what's happening here and then one
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of them had this team building exercise
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they were like their question had
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something to do with pretending this man
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was in the park and he had a
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knife and she was telling the story of
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how this happened once
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and someone went looking for him I think
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some volunteer went looking for him I
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was like that's exactly what I would do
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I was joking but not really right so and
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you know I knew that wasn't the answer
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right but I'm still that's the answer
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I'm giving that's what I would
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do just make me a park ranger
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already that's what the park ranger
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would
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do or would they I don't know maybe they
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just called the
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police I go look for this
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man you know got to protect the public
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right what is even happening I don't
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know how I feel about all
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this
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but I'm going to give it a fair
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chance it feels
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weird there were so many Rangers in
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there when I first got there I was a
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little bit early and I was just in there
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with them and I'm like God there are a
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lot of Park Rangers none of them
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attractive so I'm just like man I came
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too ear
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early yeah I'm just sitting there just
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listening to them joke around and stuff
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and just like man this little Club here
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I don't know if I want to be a part of
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this
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club so I don't know I guess it's
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probably good for me to
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be um doing this right now because it's
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going to tell me a lot before I get
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myself too
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invested so but part of me likes it part
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of me does like it so
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it's kind of
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a it's a weird situation for me usually
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I don't have like don't have conflicting
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feelings about a thing it's not how I
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work um maybe sometimes cuz like when I
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was in Nevada I was like should I stay
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in Nevada or keep going to Oregon I sat
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with that for a
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week I guess this is similar it feels
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different though
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I guess because that
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decision you know it was different it
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was
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like was it
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though I mean guess cuz what I'm
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weighing is do I want to stay a
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volunteer or become a park ranger
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or not do that at all
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cuz you know it comes with some
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constraints rules regulations whatever
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bunch of nonsense navigating weird
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social relationships all of
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that
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um I don't like being contained I don't
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want to modulate my my expression you
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know like I want to be myself
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so I don't know guess we'll
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see it's going to be dark very soon it
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kept us there so long there b no
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daylight
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left I probably should start walking
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back I love this
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hat you know that does tell me something
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doesn't it and the fact that it's a hat
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that's got the Oregon State Park logo on
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it says
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volunteer I mean that's kind of like a
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identity marker right and I like it this
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much that's
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probably something I should consider
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that's telling me that
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maybe maybe the resistance
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and the friction that I feel with this
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is something I have to navigate and
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accept
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cuz it's just I've never been able to do
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it my entire life I've never been able
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to do that I can never make any kind of
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a work relationship work where there are
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too
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many that's too structured that comes
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with too much of a
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a system you know
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that's and that's why I've always been a
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freelancer I have so much more control
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over my life that
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way this is different this is making
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myself part
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of it's not infrastructure is the wrong
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word this time
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it's it's a common word I just can't
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think of it at the moment
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and system ain't the right word either I
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can't think of it now it's just
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um this is a big
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deal this is a very good opportunity I
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don't want to screw that up
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I hope I don't if I screw it up I hope
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it's cuz I chose to not because kind of
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stumbled into doing so just by being
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myself and that's a problem because I
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should be able to just be
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myself but I know how this stuff goes
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I've experienced enough times in my
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life so I don't know maybe that's part
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of it
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too yeah