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Good
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morning. 6 o'clock in the morning here.
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Just waking
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up. Today I move off
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grid.
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Feel feel good about it. I feel great. I
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feel good. Don't feel bad. I feel
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good. Um I think that would make a lot
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of sense to most people.
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But that's how I feel. I'm not going to
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explain
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it about to embark on a very different
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chapter in my
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life. The way that I'm looking at this
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is when you let go of
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um how to frame this
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feel like this is how you break
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patterns and how you create new
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ones. You do something
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that disrupts your life. This is a
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disruption for
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me.
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And whenever you do
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that, you adapt and you grow or maybe
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you sink, but for me, I grow. So, I know
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that's what will happen.
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So, I'm not panicking. I'm not
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afraid. I'm ready. I'm ready to meet the
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moment. So, I have until 1:00 before I
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have to leave here. And that's when I'm
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going to leave because check-in time at
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the next campground is 2:00 when it's an
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hour away. Or maybe I'll leave around
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noon if I'm ready by then because I do
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have to do a couple things along the
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way. I have to get fuel for one.
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Um, and it takes time to attach my Jeep
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and detach it at the next place, all of
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that. So, maybe maybe I leave around
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noon. I'm going to be in a safe
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environment because I'll be on a
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national forest campground. I won't have
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any hookups. So, no power, no um no
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running
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water. So, it's off-rid, but it's safely
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off-rid. This matters to me.
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I think that it's the right next step
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for me, so I'm ready for
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it. I have four nights booked at this
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place. Um, that's all that I had in my
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bank account. It's $22 or $25 a night.
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There's two different campgrounds and
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there's two different prices. It's
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somewhere between 22 and 25.
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And I have $200 in my pocket. More like
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180. I think I have 180
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now cuz I had $100. My friend John gave
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me $100 yesterday. It's a good
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friend. I might need to convert some of
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that into credit.
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um you know, one of those
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um one time use credit cards that you
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can buy at a store so that I can book
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more time at the
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campgrounds. But
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ideally, I can just hold on to this
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money and use it for the things that I
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need in the in the
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world and somebody in my audience will
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send me some money that I can use that I
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can transfer to my bank account that I
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can use to extend my campground fees.
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I'm going to name my needs clearly on
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this
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channel and I'm not going to let the
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world frame those needs as
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shameful because they're not. They're
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human and they're
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real. It doesn't diminish me. It doesn't
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make me smaller because I need things
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because I need others. We are a
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relational species. But most of us have
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forgotten this. I
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haven't. I've been helping people my
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entire life. My earliest memories
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include helping people in the Boy
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Scouts. Even when my my troop
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um resisted
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helping, I
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insisted. So, I've been this way all of
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my life.
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and some people
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haven't.
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So,
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yeah, I'm going to name what I need and
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hopefully there are people out there who
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want to be part of my journey, who want
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to help
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me. It would mean a lot to me. I
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wouldn't just be
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grateful. I will be proud.
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I would appreciate
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them because those are good people and I
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like surrounding myself with good people
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and I want to build a community of good
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people. I'm not performing. I'm just
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sharing my life with you in real time as
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I have been for over a
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year. And I know you don't always agree
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with my choices, but you don't have to.
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You don't even understand me and you
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never
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will because we operate on different
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operating systems. My hardware and your
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hardware are not the
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same. My cognitive sematic, ethical,
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energetic framework is integrated and
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yours
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isn't. And this is a fact. And it took
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me all of my life to learn this.
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And I did in the past year and you know
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because you've been witnessing
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me. I'm owning it. I did the work. I
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didn't let this world take that from me.
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I stayed integrated while others
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fragmented. I'm an example of what's
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possible for you even now. Because I
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truly believe that this isn't a state of
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being that's denied to you. I think it's
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just something you've
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forgotten, something
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that you can reclaim, but you'd have to
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do a lot of hard work to do it. And for
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those who want to, I'm going to help
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you. That's what this website I'm
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building is
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about. I'm going to give you tools. I'm
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going to give you my
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wisdom, my thoughts.
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my
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energy and what I think about all of
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that because I think it's important. I
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think it matters and I think
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that I think that there are people out
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there who will benefit from
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it. But it won't just be about that
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because I'm building a
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community, one that centers
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around myself.
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I'm centering myself
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now because I deserve to be
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centered. Not as a leader, not as a
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teacher, not as a guru, not as any of
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that just as myself. I don't
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need to give myself a label. I never
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have. I don't like boxes. I don't fit
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into them.
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Just as myself, a relational being
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reaching out to
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others, reminding them that they're also
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relational, that they're in relationship
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with me right now as they watch this,
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that they're in relationship with
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everything.
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So, just a few more things I think I'll
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say. Just going to try to run
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through how I think this day is going to
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go and how I
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imagine all of this starting for
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me. So, like I said, it's 6:00 in the
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morning. I need to go down to the shower
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house. I need to shower this
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morning. I need to take all of my food
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that's in my freezer and take that over
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to John's because when my batteries die,
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my fridge will stop working. So all that
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food would go to waste. I'm giving it to
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John. Meant to do that yesterday. I
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forgot. So I'm going to do that this
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morning. Um there's a little bit of work
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to do in here as far as just getting
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organized before I can move it. Not
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really much, but a little
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bit.
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Um I don't have a lot outside. like I'm
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I'm basically um there's very little
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work to actually do
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there as far as movement
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goes. And then I do the hard part which
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is driving this thing while towing a
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Jeep. That's always been the hardest
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part for me, but it's really not that
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bad once you start doing it. It just
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creates a little bit of nerves for me.
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And I go south an
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hour to Florence and then past that to a
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campground that I I've not seen. I don't
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know this one. Um John has seen it. He
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mentioned it yesterday. I told him about
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it yesterday and he said I'll really
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like it. So I'm excited to see it. Um
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excited to set up camp
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there. Really hope to extend my time as
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much as possible. It's probably got
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rules about that, you know, made
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probably 14 days I would imagine. So, I
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can pay for up to 10 more days beyond
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what I've already paid. So, I'm hopeful
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to be able to do
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that.
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And, you know, I'm going to be off grid.
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None of these lights will work at that
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point. Um, I don't really have any
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um kind of battery powered lights, so I
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I don't really know what I'm going to do
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there. The only one I have is on um a
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small
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um battery device. I don't know what
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those things are called, but I'll show
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this in another video later. Um because
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that's going to become very important in
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my life. It's how I'm going to charge my
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devices and you know I'll charge that
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with my inverter on my Jeep. So um it's
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going to become very important in my
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life now.
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I'm really glad to have that. I wish I
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still have my solar. I sold that last
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month. I needed to. It bought me time.
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It is what's keeping my movement going.
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I used that money to pay for um two
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months of my RV and two months of my
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Jeep that were behind. Both are still
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behind. That didn't even get them fully
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caught up, but got them close enough to
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where I still have a home.
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And that's important. But that solar
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would
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have been so useful, you know, in an
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off-grid situation. I would have had AC
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power and I would have been able to
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charge those batteries, you know, not
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just from solar panels, but from just,
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you know, spending a day on a campground
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like this one and just charging them
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while I'm here and then going back out
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into the off-grid world. And that was
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always the plan. And so I really do I
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don't regret it. Regret would be the
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wrong word because I do what's
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necessary, but I really wish I had them.
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I need to replace those as soon as I
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can. At some point, I want to replace
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the batteries at my house batteries in
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my RV, the lithium ones, because these
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ones will die today probably or, you
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know, the middle of the night tonight.
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um cuz they're just they're not good
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batteries. I you know, I've already
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tested all of that and I know that's
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what's going to happen. And I can't keep
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them charged. I can't be using my
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inverter and my Jeep's fuel to keep
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those batteries
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charged every day because I don't think
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they're worth that investment. But if I
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had lithium batteries, I I think I might
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have made a different choice there.
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[Music]
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um you know so I'm just
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[Music]
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cataloging my needs um
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for living a better off-grid life but in
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the
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meantime you
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know I'll adapt and I'll learn and I'll
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grow I'm going to see just how much you
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know I'm going to make new choices like
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maybe I don't have coffee in the morning
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because I'm not hooking my coffee maker
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up to my inverter, you know. And
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um this is how change
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happens. You just, you know, you decide
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what's truly important to you
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and especially when you have to make
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different
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choices. Feel like I'll learn a lot from
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this experience. So, I'm I'm embracing
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it. I'm going to get my morning started