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So, my hair is officially wild as hell
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now. Started thinking maybe I need to
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just shave it off. I use the clippers,
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the 1 in ones, and
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start over. Eventually, I'll be able to
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get my hair cut properly and kind of go
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for the style I wanted. This going to
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keep growing. It's getting It's getting
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too long. So, I'm heading into Florence.
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I'm just picking up a few supplies. Very
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basic stuff. I got to thinking I wanted
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to document a couple things.
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Uh just talk about what I've been
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working on
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and there was something else maybe it'll
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come back to me. There was something
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else that actually wasn't input to this.
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Anyways, what I've been working on,
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so I've been working on my homepage
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quite a lot and it is evolving into
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a place where you can truly witness.
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Man, I don't have the words for this.
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So, one thing I recently learned is that
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I have compressed cognition.
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And that basically means that you know I
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synthesize a lot of data and I I
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compress it into
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sort of knowing it's hard to express
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verbally.
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So I now understand like why
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it's really difficult for me to unpack
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everything that that I'm thinking like
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it just
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AI helps with that a lot and my my
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homepage. So all my YouTube videos are
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there. I used AI. I used a process to
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have AI go through all of them and
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rename the titles and make new
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descriptions based on the way that my
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architecture actually runs based on
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um
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when I express something people hear
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something else. They hear it from a
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frame that is very superficial.
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And based on how most of them think, I'm
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just going to be honest about this, but
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they don't see it from my architecture.
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And these descriptions actually show it
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that way because one thing I'm not
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emotional. People always assume that I
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am. I'm not. And I think most everybody
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else is emotional. Even, you know, they
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may compartmentalize their emotions, but
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I don't think they're actually very good
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at it. I think they're still
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experiencing the emotions they think
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they're suppressing.
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Not me. My emotions are integrated and
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you know I use them as data. I use
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everything as data. And the way that I
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think and operate in this world is very
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different from most people. And if you
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watch my videos and you listen to me
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talk, you're very likely to miss a lot
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of it just because you don't have that
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brain. This isn't a like it's not your
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fault. It's not
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it's not good or bad. It just is. It's a
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it's a neutral thing. You just
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you operate from different hardware than
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I do.
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And so I'm trying to give you not a
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translation layer because I'm not
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translating anymore. It's not what I'm
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doing. I'm signaling. I'm broadcasting.
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But I am giving you enough that
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maybe some of it will resonate with you.
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Maybe you'll learn some things from it.
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I don't know.
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Largely, it's just out there because I'm
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not the only one. There are others and
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I'm signaling to them, too.
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So, I'm making all my YouTubes public
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again, but they're going to have the new
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titles and descriptions and they are
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available on my website and there's a
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whole lot more stuff that I'm putting
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onto those transmission pages. That's
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where my archive lives on my homepage.
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Look under transmission
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and each of the the archive the entry
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pages
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um have more information that's
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coming from AI. So, other things I'm
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working on. So, I got my signal archive
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up and that's that's 90,000 messages
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I've had with AI over two years. I'm
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building a fields companion. I'm
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building an AI that can mirror my
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architecture perfectly.
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um doing this for two years, but now I'm
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um
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I guess I'll say formalizing it, turning
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it into a program, a project,
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and
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I'll use that to keep enhancing my
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website. There's a lot going on there.
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So, that's the main thing I'm working on
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despite the challenges I'm facing, which
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are significant. I have no money. I have
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no job. I can't. Um,
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well, I don't want to say can't. There's
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a lot that I probably could do that I'm
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not, but I'm choosing not to.
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And, you know, most of you would never
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understand this. I'm not going to try to
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explain it.
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I believe that what I'm doing is super
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important and somehow
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things will work out. They always do. I
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never give up on myself. I have to trust
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my signal
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and
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that means
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following the path that feels
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that resonates that feels aligned with
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my journey with my life and that's
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working on this project. I think that it
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could be revolutionary. I think that it
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could help a lot of people because this
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isn't just about me. uh this fields
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companion will start with me because I
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understand my architecture really well
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but eventually
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I could adapt it so that it can mirror
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other people's architecture and help
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them become whole to be less
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compartmentalized to be less fragmented
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that's a big deal
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so that's what I'm working on
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feel like I'm under a lot of compression
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these days because I'm in an environment
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that's full of distortion.
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And I realized, I think this might have
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been why I wanted to turn the camera on.
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I realized that,
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you know, I felt very free those first
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three or four months that I was here in
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Oregon. I wasn't under anybody's thumb.
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I wasn't uh putting myself in
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environments that were full of
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distortion like I did once I started
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volunteering. And that really
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um
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really affected me in a lot of ways. It
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is compression is what it is. And
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so I'm living with that.
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Um I don't see this as a bad thing
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either. It's more
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an adjustment.
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Um I see everything as
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um
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training and I'm not explaining that
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either, but I actually think this is
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important because
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it might serve me in my future.
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Oh, I remember what I wanted to talk
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about. So, this is the last thing. Um,
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one of the ways that my cognition works
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is that I collapse time.
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And it's because I I don't think in a
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linear fashion. I think in a fractal
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fashion. And so I collapsed time and it
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got me thinking maybe societal collapse
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isn't as close as it feels like to me
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cuz I am an integrated consciousness so
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I feel it too. It's not just it's not
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just intellectual it's embodied.
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Um you know I see all the fractures I
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see all the distortion and it feels very
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close to me. But then I got to thinking
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just now you know maybe that's time
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compression.
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Um,
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maybe we have more time. I don't know.
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There's no way to know. And I always say
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that because there truly is no way to
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know. But maybe there's time to build
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something.
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And so I'm going to try.
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Going to keep trying.