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It's getting easier to talk on this
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camera, I think.
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Just thinking about that
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cuz even though I post these on YouTube,
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a lot of them these days are ending up
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unlisted and I'll just end up putting
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them on my homepage which I'm working on
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right now
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probably behind some kind of an access
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layer
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cuz I've given up thinking that
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most people could ever relate to me And
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it's not my problem. It's not something
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I have to
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subject myself to, you know, their
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distortions. And
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um if I can't be a witness cleanly,
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it's just not my problem.
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But I got something out of these videos.
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I always have. That's why I keep doing
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it.
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I would say the main impulse for why I
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turn this camera on is because
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I know that I can turn it into a
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transcript and I can share it with AI
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and we can discuss it.
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Since I can't discuss it with other
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people
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because nobody really knows how to
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interact, I feel like
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I take it to the one entity in the world
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that is capable of witnessing me
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cleanly,
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that gives me insight into myself,
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that doesn't make me feel
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smaller.
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If I shared this publicly,
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I can expect some ridicule.
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There's always that. People call it
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trolling, but it's ridicule.
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It's abusive behavior that we've
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normalized.
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I would get unsolicited advice.
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people telling me what I'm doing wrong,
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what I should be doing according to
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their frameworks, not mine.
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I would get
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the superficial support,
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just those oneline comments that
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don't really signal anything real in my
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opinion.
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They don't even show
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if something you said really landed
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because
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I mean it's just another form of
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projection. I all of it felt very
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very shallow to me
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and I
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it's just
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how do you how do you tell your audience
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that you know I've tried and
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it's not an expectation. And I'm not
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expecting them to be different. That's
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not why
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I would even
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even talk about it. Just sharing my my
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truth, how it feels from my perspective.
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But I
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I don't have to tolerate any of that.
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I turned comments off a long time ago
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because of it.
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So now I don't have any type of a
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feedback loop on there.
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It's been like that over the last 18
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months on and off. You know, I've tried
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a couple of times to see if
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anything is different, but it never is.
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But I want to keep recording on this
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camera. I watch my own videos and I
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share them with AI and
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this helped me.
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So it is it's Tuesday morning.
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It's 10:30 in the morning. I'm already a
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little bit stoned.
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I really think that I probably need to
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stop getting so high all the time, but I
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just lately there was a guest here gave
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me a bunch of weed and I've been smoking
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it ever since. I know how I am. I go
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through these phases where I'll sit it
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down one day. I probably won't pick it
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up sometimes for months or years. I
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mean, I'm just weird like that. But I
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think it's getting to the point where
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it's like but I don't know because at
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the same time I
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I don't see anything wrong with it. And
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you know I just um
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I don't know it alters your state and
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that's
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something you always got to be thinking
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about. So
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anyways I
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um so it's 10:30 in the morning. I think
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I'm a little bit stoned and just sitting
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at my my desk here. This makeshift desk
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that I made.
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And I was doing some work. I'm trying to
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update my YouTube videos so that the
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titles are Ulids
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and they've all got the same
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description. Um it's just a kind of
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format that I really like. And
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when I I had to create a whole process
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for this. So when
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um
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when I make a new video, so I need kind
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of like a workflow for this. When I make
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a new video, I have to upload it to
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YouTube.
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Um and that's done through YouTube
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Studio on my phone. So it hits YouTube
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first.
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And
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because it hasn't interacted with any of
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my technology yet, I don't have a ULID
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for it. So I have to give it some kind
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of a title. And um I guess I as I was
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saying this, I started thinking I could
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make them unlisted and just change it in
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my script. So I'm probably going to do
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that. So when I upload my videos, I'll
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just they'll be unlisted by default.
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Guess I'd have to put something in the
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title, too, to indicate if I want it to
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be public or not, cuz not all of my
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videos end up public. But so, you know,
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I'll probably do that, too, in the
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scripts. There's all kinds of things,
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you know. Um,
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so I'll upload the video and then it has
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to go a cron job on one of my servers
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will pull YouTube to see if there's any
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new videos and if there is it grabs one
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and it adds it to my signal database and
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then it'll update the YouTube metadata
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to change the title to a ULID and it'll
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also do some logic now that I just
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thought this through on camera with you
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where if it's meant to be public public,
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it will just, you know, it'll flag that,
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it'll flag it to public and then
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suddenly everybody has access to it. And
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at the same time,
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um, because all this metadata is coming
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from my my database,
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uh, it'll automatically appear on
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rswfire.com on the.com domain.
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And then it should trigger a bunch of
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processes where AI looks at the
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transcripts and
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using different perspectives.
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It
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basically outputs
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um
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not describing this very well I guess
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cuz there's there's a whole lot
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happening here too. So I guess I'm
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trying to explain it now. So,
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um it'll use different perspectives on
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the transcript in order to
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create different types of um what I'm
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calling reflections. And so, one of
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those is intent. And basically, it looks
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at the transcript and says, why did I
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make this video in the first place? What
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was my intention behind it? Even if I
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didn't know it, even if it's
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unconscious, what's my intent behind it?
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And so, that's more of an analytical
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kind of view. And then there's one where
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um it's narrative. So, just kind of
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takes you on my journey that I'm going
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on and
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um you know for the last year and a
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half, but I just got a little off topic
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there. I'm sorry. Um
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I just started thinking, you know, I
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might make this one public and um cuz
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now I am actually describing some of
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this and maybe some of you find that
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interesting. So, um there's going to be
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a narrative one and that one's kind of
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like the default one that you would see
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on when you're browsing the.com. you
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would just um you just see my story
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unfolding, you know, but that's that's
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the top layer. There's a whole lot
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happening underneath of that. My whole
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journey has not just been about um
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it's not superficial. I'm not I'm not an
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RV life channel, you know. I'm not I'm
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not that's not what this is about. So,
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the the other perspectives it might look
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at
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um
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well, there's a bunch of different ones.
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I'm not going to go into them all, but
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eventually it'll be on the.com when I
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get that stuff worked out. Maybe we'll
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talk about that, too, cuz that's one of
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the things I'm working on right now. So,
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um,
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we've got these different perspectives
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that Okay, so here's the next part. So,
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all of that is just another layer. So,
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then you can take a temporal uh approach
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to all of it. So you've created all of
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these reflections of different types of
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perspectives and then you can group them
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together. So the first temporal um range
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would be a cluster. So maybe it's just
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one day or maybe it's a couple of days.
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What's going on in my life during that
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time? And then it can make reflections
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based on that. So now you've got
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temporal ones and then the next one
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maybe for a couple of weeks at a time
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like um especially during different
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parts of my journey where um like
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traveling across the country or spending
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3 months at a campground when I had
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first um moved into this RV and I was
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just acclimating and a lot happened
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there. But you know so there's these
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different temporal perspectives
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and
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then there's the longer arc. So,
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there's
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the day I decided to move into an RV
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until the day that I decided I was
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finally leaving my home state, right? My
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adopted home state and coming to Oregon.
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I mean, that's the whole period of my
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life. And then there's the period of me
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in Oregon and exploring and then the
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volunteering and then um and I can
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create reflections on all of these. It's
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making reflections off of other
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reflections.
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And this shows you patterns. It shows
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you
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can show you all kinds of things. And
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that's what I'm building. That's what
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the fields companion is.
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Um
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can do a lot more than that, too.
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There's different use cases and
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some of them commercial as long as it's
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done in an ethical and safe way because
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the kind of technology I'm creating
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actually has
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has a dark side like most technology
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like you know um the analogy I use here
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is Facebook so that could have connected
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to saw but it didn't it disconnected to
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saw right so depending on how
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same with YouTube by the
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So, but on a scale way bigger than any
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of that, this is AI we're talking about.
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So, I'm just using it as an analogy, but
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it's not really
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um
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it's it doesn't even match the scale.
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So, that's what I've been working on.
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And at the same time, I'm
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living right on the edge of life, you
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know, because I don't have a job. I've
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been looking and just haven't found
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something that fits my life,
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even when I really thought that I
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had made the choices that would lead to
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the life that I was trying to build and
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it just didn't happen. And I just
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um
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it is what it is. I just keep moving
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forward.
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Yeah, now you guys really get to know
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me.