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Documenting Oregon State Parks Volunteer Abuse Experience

rswfire records a video testimony while hiking in forest, documenting institutional abuse experienced during two-month volunteer period at Oregon State Parks. He describes traveling from Kentucky to Oregon in October, volunteering at Tugman State Park in January (positive experience), then transferring to Honeyman State Park for February-March where escalating abuse occurred. After documenting supervisor's dismissive response to power outage, rswfire faced retaliation including confrontation over first-week mistakes, weaponization of personal disclosures about sexuality and life circumstances, and implied romantic interest in married supervisor. He recorded hour-long abusive meeting with park manager and supervisor, then faced surveillance by unidentified man claiming to be from park service. Park manager expelled him with 24 hours notice after he called manager a bully, citing his public video about the experience as reason for permanent ban from volunteering. Regional coordinator pathologized his documentation. Public records request was obstructed for 90 days. Director Lisa Sumption responded to open letter with deflection, later reframed his archive as 'emotional processing.' Governor has not responded. rswfire has worked nine months as volunteer for different agency (Forest Service) directly adjacent to Honeyman, promoted twice to caretaker position with work truck and route. He maintains comprehensive archive at opdvolunteerabuse.org and states this documentation will not cease.

Dec 20, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Lake Trail · 37% match
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The Story of Honeyman

rswfire published a narrative account documenting his experience as a volunteer at Honeyman State Park under the Oregon Parks & Recreation Department. The document describes a sequence of institutional actions beginning with a text exchange with park supervisor Kati about a power outage, which rswfire identifies as the first point of friction. Following that exchange, park manager Ryan initiated a review of first-week errors framed as a case file rather than feedback. rswfire's direct supervisor Logan was repeatedly unavailable during critical moments, a pattern rswfire identifies as deliberate. rswfire applied for a paid position at the park, which was never acknowledged, and his subsequent withdrawal of the application was met with suspicion. A request to be trained by a specific park ranger was approved by Logan but never followed through. rswfire sent a trust-establishing email, which led to a formal meeting at a picnic table in the day-use area with Ryan and Kati. rswfire describes this meeting as a scripted confrontation lasting over an hour, during which his written communications were framed as threats, his directness was labeled unprofessional, and he was told to extend positive intent while being told he had never received the same. Ryan used the phrase 'chew glass' as a framing of expected compliance. rswfire recorded the meeting. Weeks later, despite no infractions, Ryan called to schedule another meeting, citing ongoing problems. rswfire named the behavior as bullying. Ryan then came to rswfire's RV, dismissed him without paperwork, and collected his keys. rswfire had already been building a documentary archive throughout the process. The document serves as the original narrative account, with the full evidentiary record housed at oprdvolunteerabuse.org. A lexicon of terms used throughout is appended. The document is framed as a preservation of the origin story before institutional containment efforts.

Mar 26, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 35% match
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Marking One-Year Anniversary of Surveillance Encounter

rswfire marks the one-year anniversary of an incident at Honeyman State Park in which an unidentified man—carrying no ID, wearing no uniform, and offering no name—was sent by Oregon State Parks to assess and question him while he was working alone as a volunteer and all rangers were away at a regional event. The man asked personal questions about how leadership was treating rswfire. rswfire documented the encounter the same day. He states that Oregon State Parks has never explained the incident, produced no photograph, provided no IT documentation, and offered no operational record. A cover story was offered within hours but has never been substantiated. rswfire characterizes the encounter as a misuse of state resources against an unpaid volunteer whose only action had been documenting his treatment, and asserts it required authorization above park level. He links to the full documentation and archive at oprdvolunteerabuse.org.

Mar 18, 2026 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 34% match

Seeking an Attorney

rswfire recorded a transmission on the eve of the one-year anniversary of his dismissal from the Oregon State Parks volunteer program at Honeyman State Park on the Oregon coast. He recounted the sequence of events: after two months at the park, he was given 24 hours to vacate. The following days, a regional coordinator weaponized personal disclosures he had made to his supervisor in trust, characterizing him as unstable and expelling him from the statewide program despite having a full year of placements already lined up. He described a pattern of abuse and retaliation over the two-month period, triggered by his documentation of their treatment. He detailed a specific incident where staff sat him at a picnic table for over an hour, told him to chew glass and swallow it, said he was never given the benefit of the doubt, told him he could leave, and claimed he made everyone uncomfortable — without citing specific incidents beyond an early conflict with a supervisor. He described an intimidation event approximately a week and a half before dismissal, when an out-of-uniform man appeared while all rangers were away at a regional event and pressed him with questions about leadership's treatment of him. He stated that the institution weaponized his sexuality as a gay man, implying he had romantic feelings for his male supervisor. He noted that the formal expulsion letter, issued on state letterhead, cited his protected free speech — specifically a video he made documenting their conduct — as the sole reason, and that the institution then went silent for a full year. rswfire stated he has one year remaining on his statute of limitations and a clean documentary record. He referenced a prior transmission where he discussed future plans and expressed reluctance to sue, but in this signal he clarified his position: he is seeking legal representation specifically from an attorney willing to pursue the case to the Supreme Court to establish rights and protections for volunteers in state park systems. He framed the core issue as the absence of any mechanism protecting volunteers from institutional abuse.

Mar 23, 2026 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 34% match
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6:20

Reading Public Record Letter After Oregon Parks Dismissal

Sam reads aloud an email he sent to Allison Watson, engagement programs manager at Oregon Parks and Recreation Department, after being dismissed from his volunteer position. The email documents specific incidents with staff members Ryan and Logan, including inappropriate language, unprofessional behavior, and boundary issues. Sam describes patterns of accountability resistance, mentions awareness of similar issues with other volunteers, and requests the message be included in his file. He frames this video as his final statement on the matter and his way of ensuring the information enters public record since his email was ignored.

Mar 28, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 33% match
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1:12

Caring for Luna During Diarrhea Episode

rswfire deals with Luna's severe diarrhea episode that contaminated her cage and belongings. He cleans the cage using Clorox wipes provided by Patty, disposes of contaminated towels, and provides fresh water and food to prevent further contamination. Throughout the cleanup, he reassures Luna that the incident is not her fault while acknowledging the difficulty of the situation and expressing concern that she deserves better care than he can provide.

Aug 13, 2024 · 31% match
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16:47

Dismissed from Oregon State Park Volunteer Position

rswfire documents his removal from a volunteer host position at Honeyman State Park, Oregon, after nearly two months of service. He traces the origin of the conflict to an early-morning text he sent to park supervisor Katie about a power outage, followed by an email stating her dismissive response made him feel small. From that point, park manager Ryan confronted him in the Welcome Center citing minor first-week mistakes, and his direct supervisor Logan became intermittently absent. rswfire attempted to reset the relationship and applied for a paid position at the park. After perceiving rejection when Katie went silent upon learning of his application, he withdrew it. He later disclosed to Logan why he withdrew. Separately, he requested that a specific ranger not train him due to that ranger's condescending behavior; Logan agreed to assign someone else but did not follow through, resulting in a compromise arrangement. rswfire emailed Logan stating he had lost his trust, citing the accumulated pattern. Katie and Ryan then held an hour-long meeting at a picnic table, which rswfire secretly recorded. During that meeting, they claimed he had problems with all rangers but could only cite the original Katie incident as an example. Ryan admitted they had not extended positive intent toward rswfire. Ryan repeatedly suggested rswfire could leave voluntarily; rswfire declined. A statewide volunteer program coordinator called afterward, telling him he was not permitted to record without disclosure. Three weeks later, Ryan called to schedule a meeting, eventually revealing the pretext: an offhand comment rswfire made to a ranger assistant while turning in a homeless veteran's lost journal, in which he said 'not all rangers are helpful' to explain why he had underlined 'please try' in his note. This was used as justification to end his hosting duties. Ryan came to rswfire's RV to collect keys and equipment; rswfire recorded this interaction openly. Ryan provided no paperwork and gave a 24-hour vacate notice. rswfire states he plans to file an HR complaint, make the situation public, and potentially contact lawmakers. He notes he is broke, has no immediate place to go, his next host assignment starts in approximately one week, and his former employer has committed to sending limited funds the following day. He asks long-term viewers for financial help to bridge the gap.

Mar 24, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 30% match
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9:58

Receiving Handmade Shirts and Processing Honeyman Abuse

rswfire shows off two custom tie-dye shirts made by a guest who drove to his campground to deliver them - his first new clothing in a year and a half. He gives a brief tour of his RV setup, noting his queen air mattress popped and he switched to a twin, his desktop computer lacks a GPU, and he goes through cheap headphones frequently. He describes feeling sorrowful and remorseful after posting about his Honeyman experience in a local Facebook group to bring attention to what he identifies as deliberate abuse by two staff members over two months. He explains that multiple volunteers shared similar stories about these individuals after his removal, indicating a pattern the institution protects. He specifically criticizes the volunteer coordinator who came from a DEI background but weaponized that knowledge against him. rswfire states his archive is complete and he's in a transitional phase, planning to move somewhere else in a couple months to a situation he cannot yet discuss publicly.

Aug 20, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Tahkenitch Landing · 30% match
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15:28

Sharing Life History After Cancelled Dentist Appointment

rswfire cancelled a dentist appointment after waiting an hour and feeling melancholy, then drove home reflecting on his life. He shares his biographical narrative starting from childhood in Flint, Michigan, where he experienced bullying and molestation by a neighborhood kid. His family moved frequently across Arizona from fourth to seventh grade, living in Phoenix, Glendale, and Scottsdale. During this period, he participated in Boy Scouts and BMX racing, showing early signs of empathy by intentionally losing a race so another child wouldn't come in last. He describes problematic family dynamics where his parents consistently invalidated his perceptions and observations, telling him he was "overthinking" when he pointed out family issues. His mother shared traumatic details of her own childhood abuse before he was in fourth grade, creating an inappropriate emotional burden. His father conducted abusive sessions where he would rant at the children for hours, calling them problem kids. The family moved to Arkansas in eighth grade, then back to Michigan for ninth grade, where rswfire became rebellious and adopted an alternative appearance with dyed hair and Nine Inch Nails music. He describes running away multiple times, living on streets, in tents, and on park benches. At 47, he has recently cut ties with his parents and spent six months working with AI to process these experiences. He mentions having decades of journals in his RV that document ongoing parental harm.

Jun 28, 2024 · 28% match
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5:43

Doctor Abandonment Forces Cold Turkey Withdrawal

rswfire records at 3:00 AM after being woken by his cat Bailey. He explains why he cannot taper off medication as commenters suggest. **His trusted doctor of four decades initially responded positively when told about the RV move**, but then suddenly put staff between them and cut off communication after an appointment was scheduled. The doctor's abandonment forces rswfire into cold turkey withdrawal rather than the gradual tapering he would prefer. He expresses shock at this betrayal from someone he considered a friend and trusted deeply. **The transmission is interrupted multiple times by Bailey the cat demanding attention and sitting on him**. rswfire warns others to be careful what they tell their doctors.

Apr 27, 2024 · 27% match
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3:17

Addressing Trollish Comments on Fire Safety Video

rswfire records from his camper with his cat Bailey, addressing an influx of trollish comments on a previous video about someone pouring charcoal lighter fluid into a fire. He explains his initial understanding of viewers lacking context about him, but notes the comments have escalated to personal insults including being called "Karen" and told to "buy dildos." He emphasizes that the behavior he documented was indeed a fire hazard, citing articles from the Army and city of Phoenix. rswfire describes waking up and immediately seeing the dangerous behavior, explaining his reaction was reasonable given feeling unsafe. He criticizes people for making judgments without considering context and states he will highlight specific comments to call out unacceptable behavior.

Jul 31, 2024 · 26% match
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3:27

Reflecting on Lost Human History and Documentation Purpose

The speaker reflects on the vast gaps in human historical knowledge, noting that billions of lives have been lost to history without leaving traces. He observes that even remembered historical figures have been reduced to symbols rather than being seen as real people with humanity. **This concern about lost human stories drives his motivation for documenting his own life and creating autonomy software.** He describes this software as a way to document life and leave legacy, even if only for oneself, emphasizing that everyone is worth witnessing. The speaker mentions that the first component he built was a mirror system, and reflects on what he sees as the sacred nature of his work, though he acknowledges others don't understand this perspective.

Dec 4, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Beach · 25% match
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1:03

Pre-Surgery Reflection on Mountain Dew Damage

rswfire records a transmission on the morning of dental surgery, preparing to have four steel rods drilled into his jawbone. He attributes the need for this procedure to lifelong Mountain Dew consumption. He recalls a woman on Cornov Street in his late twenties who observed his constant consumption of the green bottles, which prompted him to temporarily stop drinking it. He proposes using himself as a cautionary example - 'Mountain Dew man' - to warn others about the dental consequences of the beverage.

Feb 26, 2024 · 25% match
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6:12

Processing Childhood Abuse and Life Pattern Recognition

The speaker reflects on conversations with ChatGPT about motivations behind recent life changes, initially considering whether it was a midlife crisis but concluding it wasn't. He discusses a pattern of leaving abusive situations throughout his life, specifically detailing choosing homelessness over living with his abusive father. The speaker describes sleeping on gravel at a mall rather than staying in his father's house, characterizing his father as a monster who tried to destroy him. He connects this historical pattern to recent life stagnation in a house he was renting for $600/month, where he felt trapped by barking dogs and his father's continued presence in his life through his mother. The speaker describes how COVID changed him, leading to isolation behaviors like ordering DoorDash and hiding from delivery drivers despite giving good tips. The transmission concludes with the speaker expressing pride in maintaining his sensitivity and compassion despite his father's abuse, while acknowledging his father as a persistent negative presence in his mind that he wants to eliminate. His father is currently giving him the silent treatment after the speaker publicly discussed the abuse.

Jun 1, 2024 · 24% match
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14:56

Saturday Hiking Route Documentation and Weekly Provisioning

rswfire documents a Saturday morning hike at Silk Goose Lake trailhead near his residence in Lockheed, Oregon. He maps the trail structure (approximately 4 miles total, with a fork at three-quarters mile leading to his usual turnaround point). Prior to hiking, he sold a PS Vita for cash, deposited funds at an ATM, and placed a grocery order for delivery pickup. He prepared chili using a Ninja Foodie slow cooker with vegan hamburger, beans, garlic, and onions—a recipe he plans to share with Bill. His grocery haul includes eggs, milk, bread, bagels, peanut butter, jelly, salt, sugar, pop, and other staples. He documents a wood-chopping accident from the previous day where debris struck his right eye, causing temporary vision loss (10-20 minutes of blackness). He examined the eye afterward and found no visible damage, though he reports residual shadow-like visual artifacts in darkness. He identifies the incident as a learning moment regarding safety precautions and references Chris McCandless's Alaska survival attempt as a tangential reflection on risk.

Jan 24, 2026 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Lake Trail · 24% match
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Crabbing Experience and Campground Work Discussion

rswfire accompanies Johnny crabbing at Newport pier, expressing disgust at the birds, bird droppings, and the process of catching and killing crabs. He documents the experience while feeling uncomfortable with the alien-like appearance of the crabs and the killing process. After leaving Johnny at the pier, he walks to South Jetty area and reflects on the ocean. Later they meet at a cleaning station where Johnny demonstrates how to kill and clean crabs, with rswfire continuing to film despite his discomfort. The conversation shifts to campground work arrangements, with rswfire discussing his upcoming volunteer position with flexible 8am-noon hours to allow for additional employment. They discuss various campground politics, including an incident with an aggressive volunteer nicknamed "the holy roller" who yelled at Johnny over customer service procedures. Other topics include rswfire's frustration about being "banished" from Oregon State Parks, a neighbor's constantly beeping carbon monoxide detector, plans to potentially fix his RV slide-out mechanism, and navigation issues getting to the pier. The conversation covers practical RV living concerns like propane hookup, camping equipment needs, and the possibility of tent camping for exploration trips.

Apr 22, 2025 · 24% match
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4:09

Dismissed from Oregon Parks Volunteer Program

rswfire announces his official dismissal from the Oregon Parks and Recreation Department volunteer program via letterhead. The dismissal cited public comments (referring to a previous video timeline) but provided no concrete justifications beyond standard volunteer termination language. He plans to escalate by filing a formal complaint with HR, not to rejoin but to hold leadership accountable. **rswfire reflects on bringing presence, joy, and genuine commitment** to the volunteer role and states he was rejected solely for holding leadership accountable when they forced the situation. He accepts the reality, will resume his job, and return to moving every two weeks, which provides more freedom to explore the coast. Recording takes place in his RV on a cloudy afternoon with poor lighting conditions.

Mar 26, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 24% match
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8:29

Processing Hypervigilance and Parental Trauma Patterns

The speaker reflects on living in an angled RV for a week, causing balance issues and sleep difficulties. He considers leveling the RV on Thursday to avoid weekend crowds. **Core focus shifts to processing childhood trauma** - specifically hypervigilance developed from constant analysis of his father's moods and judgment. He describes feeling inferior and unwanted, recognizing this as toxic conditioning that shaped him into something he wasn't meant to be. The speaker acknowledges his mother also failed to provide comfort, never hugging her children, contrary to his previous idealization of her as the "good parent." He connects his high sensitivity and cognitive differences to feeling damaged and broken throughout his life, rather than recognizing these as strengths. **Key insight emerges**: He now understands his parents were the problem, not him, though he recognizes the need for ongoing reprogramming. He also addresses societal conditioning around being gay that reinforced feelings of unworthiness. The speaker describes feeling perpetually separate from the world, using his YouTube avatar (person standing apart from Earth) as symbolic representation. **New self-awareness**: He recognizes his hypervigilance may have created cyclical patterns, causing his father to become more guarded in response, and potentially making it harder for his mother to show affection. While acknowledging his role in these dynamics, he maintains that as parents, they should have addressed these patterns regardless.

Jul 18, 2024 · 24% match
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2:18

Direct Support Request After Institutional Discard

rswfire addresses his audience about being discarded by an institution in March for showing up with integrity rather than misconduct. He describes how this event devastated his life, fractured his trajectory, and placed him into precarity. He explains that he has been rebuilding from the ground up while living in a self-contained environment with minimal resources and no financial cushion. Despite these constraints, he continues cooking for neighbors, making, building, and holding his signal. He directly requests support from his audience for fuel, food, tools, and the ability to continue his work, framing this not as a transaction or campaign but as an offering of alignment for those who have received value from his work and want it to continue.

Jul 23, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Beach · 24% match
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4:42

Driving to Dentist, Processing Family Estrangement

rswfire records while driving to a dentist appointment in Lexington, where his parents live. He discusses the technical challenge of recording while driving and mentions needing to bring a GoPro for future recordings. **He reflects on wanting to retrieve personal items** (monitor, gaming books) and see his cat Oliver, but being unable to do so because they are at his parents' house and he has chosen to cut contact with them. **He describes the emotional cost of this decision** - having to give up cherished possessions and his cat to avoid what he characterizes as ongoing emotional damage from his parents. He explains that his parents never validated his identity as a highly sensitive person, gay man, and INFJ, instead trying to suppress these aspects of himself. **He identifies his core struggle as self-doubt and lack of self-love**, which he traces directly to his upbringing and describes as affecting every aspect of his current life, from living in the RV to interpersonal relationships. He acknowledges this pattern is common but emphasizes the analytical awareness versus emotional acceptance gap he experiences.

Jun 28, 2024 · 24% match
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8:03

Transitioning to Caretaker Role After YouTube Channel Closure

rswfire reflects on closing his YouTube channel after a year and a half due to disconnected audiences who didn't respect boundaries. He discusses his website potentially being shut off due to inability to pay the $70/month AWS hosting bill, though he can work locally if needed. He's transitioning from park host to caretaker role, which involves driving a truck and delivering supplies to campground hosts across different locations. His boss has been supportive for 6 months, contrasting with brutal psychological abuse experienced at state parks over two months. He's building friendships with other hosts, particularly one he hikes with regularly (20-30 miles this week), and is mapping hiking locations in Oregon coastal dunes using GPS. The new role involves living in a restricted corridor space rather than on a campground.

Sep 8, 2025 · 23% match
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2:53

Experiencing Withdrawal Symptoms at Campground

The speaker is experiencing severe withdrawal symptoms on day one of what appears to be a detox process, describing congestion and expecting days three to five to be particularly difficult. They are staying at a campground with shower facilities and considering going for a walk despite low energy. The speaker mentions missing certain substances and plans to avoid posting content until the withdrawal period ends or they leave on Thursday. They express shock and disappointment at their doctor's handling of the situation after a 20-year relationship.

Apr 29, 2024 · 23% match
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4:23

Processing Opioid Withdrawal in RV

rswfire documents a severe withdrawal experience after attempting to sleep for 12-14 hours but only managing 2 hours of rest. He describes unexpected symptoms including restless arms (not just legs as anticipated), feeling off-balance, and heaviness. He expresses embarrassment about his opioid history, mentioning years of doctor-supervised use before the doctor 'turned on him' after he moved into the RV. He acknowledges wanting to get off opioids as part of his transition but feels alone with no one to call for support. Despite the difficult state, he shows his outdoor environment with cats and notes he doesn't regret his current path. He decides not to drive due to feeling off-balance and plans to find showers at his current location.

Apr 29, 2024 · 23% match
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Nine Month Transformation Journey Reflection

rswfire reflects on a nine-month transformation period, detailing multiple major life changes accomplished despite others' skepticism. **Key accomplishments include:** quitting Tramadol cold turkey (from 300+ mg daily to zero), quitting smoking after 30 years and switching to vaping, building RV living skills, addressing dental health, and moving across the country with comments disabled to avoid superficial interactions. **The journey continued** with a week-long mountain stay where he decided to stop taking Klonopin after 15 years of use for panic disorder, despite warnings about difficulty. He then moved to Oregon, developed a connection with the ocean, and hiked extensively for 2-3 months at 3 mph up mountains, sustaining an injury on descent but continuing to hike for two more months until his body signaled to stop. **Throughout this process** he documented showing others what complete personal transformation looks like - becoming whole, integrated, and complete in oneself. He expresses frustration that despite showing vulnerability and requesting help, he has been met with silence from his audience, who consumed his content without reciprocating support despite the courage, resources, effort and time required for his transformation.

Dec 9, 2024 | Oregon State Parks > Cape Blanco · 23% match
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