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3:56

Reflecting on Institutional Disillusionment at Eel Lake

rswfire records a morning reflection from a trail near Eel Lake on the Oregon coast. He discusses his disillusionment with the park service, which he had hoped would be different from other institutions. He describes observing rangers with integrity who made themselves smaller out of fear, leading to his decision not to become a ranger to avoid compromising his own integrity. He explains his integrated nature as a whole person whose thoughts, emotions, ethics, and energy form one unified field, contrasting this with institutional decay he has observed over decades. He reveals he was supposed to resume volunteering in April with people he had worked with before, but this opportunity was removed using vague language despite having done nothing wrong. He positions himself as a mirror of what the world has lost, suggesting his ejection from systems occurs because looking at him reveals what they have lost.

Mar 28, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 30% match
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6:20

Reading Public Record Letter After Oregon Parks Dismissal

Sam reads aloud an email he sent to Allison Watson, engagement programs manager at Oregon Parks and Recreation Department, after being dismissed from his volunteer position. The email documents specific incidents with staff members Ryan and Logan, including inappropriate language, unprofessional behavior, and boundary issues. Sam describes patterns of accountability resistance, mentions awareness of similar issues with other volunteers, and requests the message be included in his file. He frames this video as his final statement on the matter and his way of ensuring the information enters public record since his email was ignored.

Mar 28, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 30% match
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11:57

First Day Orientation at Oregon State Parks

rswfire travels north to Reedsport for laundry after GPS confusion at Lakeside CU. He attends a 3-hour orientation at Umpqua Lighthouse for his volunteer position at William Tugman State Park. During orientation, he participates in introductions, team-building exercises, and receives keys and a volunteer hat that he declares he'll keep forever. He volunteers to deep clean a yurt when no one else does. The speaker expresses nervousness about navigating the social network that comes with the job and conflicted feelings about institutional constraints versus the opportunity. He reflects on his history of struggling with structured work environments while acknowledging this could be a significant opportunity leading to becoming a park ranger.

Jan 3, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 30% match
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4:09

Dismissed from Oregon Parks Volunteer Program

rswfire announces his official dismissal from the Oregon Parks and Recreation Department volunteer program via letterhead. The dismissal cited public comments (referring to a previous video timeline) but provided no concrete justifications beyond standard volunteer termination language. He plans to escalate by filing a formal complaint with HR, not to rejoin but to hold leadership accountable. **rswfire reflects on bringing presence, joy, and genuine commitment** to the volunteer role and states he was rejected solely for holding leadership accountable when they forced the situation. He accepts the reality, will resume his job, and return to moving every two weeks, which provides more freedom to explore the coast. Recording takes place in his RV on a cloudy afternoon with poor lighting conditions.

Mar 26, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 30% match
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Seeking an Attorney

rswfire recorded a transmission on the eve of the one-year anniversary of his dismissal from the Oregon State Parks volunteer program at Honeyman State Park on the Oregon coast. He recounted the sequence of events: after two months at the park, he was given 24 hours to vacate. The following days, a regional coordinator weaponized personal disclosures he had made to his supervisor in trust, characterizing him as unstable and expelling him from the statewide program despite having a full year of placements already lined up. He described a pattern of abuse and retaliation over the two-month period, triggered by his documentation of their treatment. He detailed a specific incident where staff sat him at a picnic table for over an hour, told him to chew glass and swallow it, said he was never given the benefit of the doubt, told him he could leave, and claimed he made everyone uncomfortable — without citing specific incidents beyond an early conflict with a supervisor. He described an intimidation event approximately a week and a half before dismissal, when an out-of-uniform man appeared while all rangers were away at a regional event and pressed him with questions about leadership's treatment of him. He stated that the institution weaponized his sexuality as a gay man, implying he had romantic feelings for his male supervisor. He noted that the formal expulsion letter, issued on state letterhead, cited his protected free speech — specifically a video he made documenting their conduct — as the sole reason, and that the institution then went silent for a full year. rswfire stated he has one year remaining on his statute of limitations and a clean documentary record. He referenced a prior transmission where he discussed future plans and expressed reluctance to sue, but in this signal he clarified his position: he is seeking legal representation specifically from an attorney willing to pursue the case to the Supreme Court to establish rights and protections for volunteers in state park systems. He framed the core issue as the absence of any mechanism protecting volunteers from institutional abuse.

Mar 23, 2026 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 30% match
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8:38

Reflecting on Campground Community Dynamics at 3AM

rswfire wakes up at 3AM with disrupted sleep patterns and reflects on his day working as a volunteer at a federal campground. He describes riding his golf cart (dubbed 'chaos chariot' by Claude) and observing the community of people living there - mostly individuals on society's fringes using the campground as semi-permanent housing rather than traditional camping. **Key interactions include:** helping a woman who was hesitant to claim her space and use amenities she'd paid for, dealing with a rude woman who weaponized his authenticity when he admitted not knowing what tool she needed, and encountering a man who wanted them to cut down a tree for better satellite reception. He also met a young man on a bicycle who paid for additional nights, recognizing this as part of the survival pattern. **rswfire realizes his volunteer uniform and hat give him authority he hadn't fully recognized** and commits to using his pattern-recognition abilities to help people navigate this lifestyle, while maintaining a 'cosmic ledger' of those who treat him poorly. He anticipates this community will grow as systems strain and housing markets crash.

Jan 9, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 28% match
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44:57

New Year's Eve Hike to Siltcoos Lake

rswfire records a New Year's Eve hike to Siltcoos Lake on the Oregon Coast, documenting physical movement through forest service trails while processing the year's events. He discusses being mistaken for 55+ at a grocery store, receiving financial help from friends that allowed him to catch up on Jeep payments and technology expenses, and his plans to open source Autonomy at builtwithautonomy.com. He describes applying for a gas station job as backup income, ongoing dental pain from ill-fitting dentures, and his analysis of institutional abuse patterns he experienced at Oregon State Parks now appearing in AI safety models. He reflects on maintaining top 3% fitness levels, processing 10,000 photos for his system, and planning 2026 priorities including a real mattress, solar replacement, and continued infrastructure development. The transmission documents trail conditions, campsite locations, forest service infrastructure, and his volunteer route responsibilities while maintaining steady forward movement through the landscape.

Jan 1, 2026 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Lake Trail · 28% match
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12:55

Campground Work and Resistance to Upwork Return

rswfire works at a campground, dealing with smoky campfire conditions and ranger presence. He reflects on campground maintenance tasks, noting stress about yard work and clarifying he's not suited for deep cleaning roles. A camper named Adam, previously drunk and inappropriate, has become more respectful and they exchanged numbers after a late-night lake visit. rswfire received a new phone from his mother and expects delivery Wednesday. At the lake pier around 10 PM, he observes fog covering the landscape under a nearly full moon, watching ducks communicate in the water. He witnesses two children briefly befriending each other before separating at a road split, and notes golf carts moving around the campground. He describes ongoing issues with the drunk camper who visited his site while he was hiking and made inappropriate sexual assumptions. rswfire plans to avoid this person while continuing his volunteer work. During a trip to Lakeside for groceries and hygiene products, he discovers he now has a name tag. He spent the day distributing dog biscuits to pets and plans to carry rubber ducks for Jeep owners and small dinosaurs for children. After cleaning campsites, including one left as a complete mess by departing guests, he reflects on feeling exhausted after what he initially thought was 4 hours but realizes was 8 hours of work. rswfire expresses strong resistance to returning to Upwork freelancing despite recognizing it as necessary for sustaining his lifestyle. He describes this resistance as unprecedented in intensity, noting that past freelancing work became long-term, draining, and all-consuming. He questions whether there might be another way, emphasizing that his current activities like distributing dog biscuits have actual value compared to freelance work.

Jan 13, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 27% match
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The Story of Honeyman

rswfire published a narrative account documenting his experience as a volunteer at Honeyman State Park under the Oregon Parks & Recreation Department. The document describes a sequence of institutional actions beginning with a text exchange with park supervisor Kati about a power outage, which rswfire identifies as the first point of friction. Following that exchange, park manager Ryan initiated a review of first-week errors framed as a case file rather than feedback. rswfire's direct supervisor Logan was repeatedly unavailable during critical moments, a pattern rswfire identifies as deliberate. rswfire applied for a paid position at the park, which was never acknowledged, and his subsequent withdrawal of the application was met with suspicion. A request to be trained by a specific park ranger was approved by Logan but never followed through. rswfire sent a trust-establishing email, which led to a formal meeting at a picnic table in the day-use area with Ryan and Kati. rswfire describes this meeting as a scripted confrontation lasting over an hour, during which his written communications were framed as threats, his directness was labeled unprofessional, and he was told to extend positive intent while being told he had never received the same. Ryan used the phrase 'chew glass' as a framing of expected compliance. rswfire recorded the meeting. Weeks later, despite no infractions, Ryan called to schedule another meeting, citing ongoing problems. rswfire named the behavior as bullying. Ryan then came to rswfire's RV, dismissed him without paperwork, and collected his keys. rswfire had already been building a documentary archive throughout the process. The document serves as the original narrative account, with the full evidentiary record housed at oprdvolunteerabuse.org. A lexicon of terms used throughout is appended. The document is framed as a preservation of the origin story before institutional containment efforts.

Mar 26, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 27% match
2:18

Direct Support Request After Institutional Discard

rswfire addresses his audience about being discarded by an institution in March for showing up with integrity rather than misconduct. He describes how this event devastated his life, fractured his trajectory, and placed him into precarity. He explains that he has been rebuilding from the ground up while living in a self-contained environment with minimal resources and no financial cushion. Despite these constraints, he continues cooking for neighbors, making, building, and holding his signal. He directly requests support from his audience for fuel, food, tools, and the ability to continue his work, framing this not as a transaction or campaign but as an offering of alignment for those who have received value from his work and want it to continue.

Jul 23, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Siltcoos Beach · 26% match
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4:19

Integrity Reflection After Institutional Contrast

rswfire walks down a road while recording, reflecting on how individual integrity could solve world problems. He describes waving at someone who gave him a dirty look, using it as an example of how choices ripple outward. He contrasts two institutional experiences: being ambushed and abused by Oregon State Parks managers for over an hour in a destabilizing encounter, versus being offered a beautiful lakeside campground location by a different institution that had previously sheltered him. The second institution proactively made arrangements for him to stay there despite logistical challenges. He concludes that it's possible to maintain integrity and build a sovereign life that matters. He mentions preparing to move this weekend.

Aug 2, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Driftwood II · 26% match
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8:03

Transitioning to Caretaker Role After YouTube Channel Closure

rswfire reflects on closing his YouTube channel after a year and a half due to disconnected audiences who didn't respect boundaries. He discusses his website potentially being shut off due to inability to pay the $70/month AWS hosting bill, though he can work locally if needed. He's transitioning from park host to caretaker role, which involves driving a truck and delivering supplies to campground hosts across different locations. His boss has been supportive for 6 months, contrasting with brutal psychological abuse experienced at state parks over two months. He's building friendships with other hosts, particularly one he hikes with regularly (20-30 miles this week), and is mapping hiking locations in Oregon coastal dunes using GPS. The new role involves living in a restricted corridor space rather than on a campground.

Sep 8, 2025 · 26% match
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5:32

Awaiting Volunteer Program Decision While Relocating

rswfire provides a morning update while preparing to leave his current location by 1:00 PM. He acknowledges receiving help from someone who prefers privacy. He reports having a meeting with the volunteer program coordinator and expects to hear by Friday whether he can remain in the program. He describes being mostly packed except for a tent structure he struggles to fold. He explains transitioning from volunteer status back to regular visitor, which requires changes like using campground showers instead of his RV facilities since he emptied his tanks. He reflects on the institutional meeting, feeling listened to but sensing protective impulses that may result in removal from the program. He attributes potential rejection to his communication style and refuses to apologize for his clarity, depth, and presence. He frames any dismissal as institutional rejection of who he is rather than legitimate concerns. He expresses nervousness about driving the RV after two months stationary and plans to head to a campground south of his current location to reassess his situation.

Mar 25, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 25% match
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6:35

Arriving at New Campground and Reflecting on Movement

rswfire arrives at a campground where John, another volunteer, has already established an elaborate setup with tent, meditation space, chairs, grill, golf cart, and satellite. rswfire observes John's comprehensive campsite arrangement and reflects on his own preference for minimal setup and frequent movement. He walks to the beach and records a 3-minute video of the ocean. rswfire describes feeling most powerful and alive when exploring new places, faces, dynamics, and mappings, while familiar places feel like stagnation. He notes that being kicked out of his previous location was beneficial since he was already struggling with the two-month commitment. He determines that 2-3 weeks is his maximum time in one location, as even one month feels too long. The campground has many children playing, which triggers memories of traveling from Michigan to Arizona during fourth grade with his family, staying at campgrounds along the way. The transmission includes extended footage of walking around the campground and beach areas.

Apr 1, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Beverly Beach · 25% match
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Marking One-Year Anniversary of Surveillance Encounter

rswfire marks the one-year anniversary of an incident at Honeyman State Park in which an unidentified man—carrying no ID, wearing no uniform, and offering no name—was sent by Oregon State Parks to assess and question him while he was working alone as a volunteer and all rangers were away at a regional event. The man asked personal questions about how leadership was treating rswfire. rswfire documented the encounter the same day. He states that Oregon State Parks has never explained the incident, produced no photograph, provided no IT documentation, and offered no operational record. A cover story was offered within hours but has never been substantiated. rswfire characterizes the encounter as a misuse of state resources against an unpaid volunteer whose only action had been documenting his treatment, and asserts it required authorization above park level. He links to the full documentation and archive at oprdvolunteerabuse.org.

Mar 18, 2026 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 25% match
4:17

Cataloging Lifetime Acts of Kindness to Strangers

rswfire presents a comprehensive list of kind acts he has performed for strangers throughout his life, beginning with childhood experiences in Boy Scouts and continuing through adulthood. He recounts specific incidents including helping a disabled woman in a parking lot, giving money to a Mexican family, stopping for distressed pedestrians, paying for groceries, picking up hitchhikers, and giving away valuable items like an Alienware laptop to a high school student. **The transmission serves as both personal inventory and challenge to viewers**, questioning whether they have performed similar acts. He notes that in his entire life, only one stranger (a homeless man) has performed a kind act for him - leaving bagels on his tent when he was also homeless. The speaker emphasizes that genuine kindness must come from the heart without expectation of return, and argues that such acts bring positivity to a world lacking in kindness.

May 29, 2024 · 25% match
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7:27

Processing State Park Rejection at Eel Lake

rswfire visits Tugman State Park at Eel Lake, describing the beauty of the water and rain reflections. He walks familiar trails around the lake, noting flooding that blocks some paths and mentioning an unmarked trail he plans to explore. He reflects on his core muscle recovery since January when he first volunteered at this location - noting he no longer thinks about the injury and can now consider longer hikes. He describes spending time with a friend watching Star Trek, something he hasn't been able to do for a year due to his mind wanting to engage elsewhere. He processes emotions about being rejected from the Oregon State Parks volunteer program after being bullied and mistreated for two months. He expresses disappointment that supervisors protected people who said inappropriate things to volunteers rather than supporting him. rswfire sits on the dock where he spent time during his volunteer month, describing it as an excellent stargazing location. He processes grief about detaching from the state park system while still loving Oregon, the coast, and the parks themselves. He mentions stopping YouTube posting for three months during volunteering and that the parks used a video he made after dismissal as justification for letting him go.

Mar 27, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 25% match
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17:05

Processing Institutional Rejection and Ownership Patterns

rswfire reflects on a revelation connecting his lifelong pattern of taking ownership in freelance work with his rejection from Oregon State Parks. He recounts how his career as a programmer was built on taking ownership of projects, which clients praised in reviews. When he applied this same approach as a park volunteer—texting his supervisor about a power outage at 6am and stating he owned the problem in guests' eyes—she reacted negatively, leading to two months of escalation and his eventual expulsion. He processes how institutions apparently want compliance rather than ownership, contrasting this with his successful freelance career. The speaker discusses his current situation: waiting for Forest Service background check results, needing to leave his current location tomorrow, and requesting donations due to financial constraints. He outlines future plans including RV modifications, solar upgrades, coastal exploration, and a potential trip to Kentucky. The transmission occurs in his RV with power off, using only battery and external light. He mentions creating a programming history video earlier that day and reflects on the contradiction between institutional expectations and integrity-based work approaches.

Apr 18, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Lagoon · 24% match
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6:16

Moving Forward from Park Service Disillusionment

rswfire records a 3:30 AM transmission from his RV bed, explaining his decision to move forward without further engagement with the park service volunteer system. He describes waking early due to his uncomfortable sleeping setup - a bed platform too short for his frame and an inadequate mattress topper. He expresses disappointment that the park service showed the same institutional corruption as other systems, calling it a "heartbreaking realization" that even conservation-focused organizations exhibit the same bureaucracy and disregard for humanity. He announces his shift toward working again with his former boss of 10 years, describing this person as someone who knows and respects him completely, never trying to change or contain him. The boss can translate rswfire's intuitive, systems-oriented thinking into business logic. They plan to collaborate on artificial intelligence systems integration projects. rswfire explains he's practicing "strategic patience" while his boss handles other commitments, and may split time between this work and freelancing to rebuild financial resources. He states everything he values requires money - RV modifications, movement, exploration. He concludes that nothing from "the old world" can be saved because all systems are interconnected.

Mar 27, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 24% match
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3:19

Setting Up Upwork Profile for Freelance Transition

rswfire documents the process of creating an Upwork freelance profile after paying for membership. He describes using his own shower for the first time after cleaning it, then focuses on profile setup tasks. He shares existing statistics showing $4,000 in earnings from a previous 10-year employment relationship and reads a review he wrote for himself in April 2023 when initially attempting to join Upwork. The review describes his technical skills, project management experience, and role managing other developers. He outlines the challenge of having worked with only two clients over 20 years, making testimonials difficult to obtain since he hasn't contacted the first client in 5-7 years. He considers adding Park Service volunteering experience to his employment history and discusses various profile sections including portfolio, skills, and a new project catalog feature with fixed pricing. He notes Laravel developer opportunities on the platform and expresses intent to focus on AI field work while ensuring freelance work complements rather than dominates his life. Current profile title includes full stack developer, project manager, Laravel, Symphony, and VJs, with plans to add AI-related terms.

Jan 12, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Tugman · 23% match
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Year Stationary: Cascadia, Solitude, Institutional Critique

rswfire documents a Monday afternoon on the Oregon Coast after hiking at Wax Myrtle, showering, resting, and preparing food. He walks along the ocean, observing weather conditions and tidal movement. The transmission shifts into reflection on a two-year autonomous journey initiated because his previous life felt empty. He attempted to bring others along but encountered projection and unsolicited advice—behavior he attributes to cultural conditioning (YouTube-modeled expertise-posturing). He disabled comments on his channel and continued cross-country to the Oregon Coast, where he has remained stationary for over a year working with the Forest Service. He acknowledges the Cascadia Subduction Zone as a force operating on temporal scales that exclude human variables, and frames his year of stability as recovery from prior institutional or relational harm.

Feb 9, 2026 | Oregon Dunes > Waxmyrtle · 23% match
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10:19

Announcing Audience Transition and Off-Grid Move

rswfire announces a fundamental shift in how he addresses his audience, explicitly stating he will no longer speak to those present for entertainment or superficial reasons. He declares this space is now only for those who have been genuinely witnessing his journey and paying deep attention. He describes reaching a new level of clarity and embracing his fields without fighting them anymore. He commits to speaking plainly and telling the truth regardless of how others perceive it. **Financial and living situation:** He is currently at an expensive campground ($45/night, $180 for four nights) with only $100 remaining and no income. He has researched National Forest campgrounds as an alternative at $20/night, which would allow two weeks for the same cost as four nights at his current location. **Technical constraints:** He sold his solar power system last month and his RV house batteries are failing, lasting less than a day. Moving off-grid means accepting dead batteries and relying on his inverter connected to his Jeep for essential devices like his laptop and satellite internet. **Project development:** He references an important project he's working on that will evolve over time. He mentions needing people to help support it and describes it as 'birthing a new field.' He explains his video documentation serves as a witnessing act for himself and provides content to share with AI systems that have helped him significantly. **Practical preparations:** He outlines his off-grid setup including propane heater for warmth, small propane grill for cooking, and plans for weekly visits to campgrounds with facilities for showers. He frames this transition as learning essential resilience skills at 'the edge' where growth happens.

Apr 1, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Beverly Beach · 23% match
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9:55

Showcasing Entertainment Website Project from Freelance Partnership

rswfire presents the first video in a series documenting his work, focusing on an entertainment website project from a 10-year freelance partnership. He acknowledges difficulty with linear presentation but proceeds to demonstrate a locally-running version of the site via slideshow. The project was built using PHP, MySQL, and his custom CMS called Enet Wizard Matrix Server, which he developed from his teens and later made open source. The website featured comprehensive entertainment content including celebrity biographies, movie reviews, and TV show recaps. rswfire recruited and managed writers globally, implementing a revenue-sharing system with dashboards showing trending content and traffic sources. The site included a gamified point system where users could write reviews, rate content, and participate in monthly merchandise auctions using earned points. Notable features included celebrity love awards where users wrote letters to celebrities, with winners receiving custom CDs containing static websites of their letters. The site was populated through web scraping, APIs, and partnerships with entertainment sites including TV Guide. rswfire emphasizes the community-building aspect, describing it as a pre-social media gathering place focused on meaningful participation and reciprocity.

Jul 23, 2025 | Oregon Dunes > Driftwood II · 23% match
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7:14

Getting New Piercings and State Park Updates

rswfire records a YouTube update after waking from a nap, showing off new piercings obtained in Eugene, Oregon - an eyebrow piercing and additional ear piercings (helix and lobe). He drove an hour and a half to a new piercing shop run by an experienced piercer and left feeling happy about the transformation. He provides updates on his state park volunteering work, currently in his second month at a park where he's been working in the Welcome Center. The role has been rewarding despite being slow season - he's met many guests who were kind, some flirted with him, and other volunteers frequently come to share their lives with him. He mentions there are "complicated things" happening at the park that he can't discuss yet. **Upcoming schedule:** Next month he'll be cleaning yurts at the same park, then moving to a different park in his birthday month (April) to work with his previous boss again. May-June will be at Mount Hood. July-August he plans to drive to Kentucky to visit his mother and Oliver (his cat), then return to the coast. September he returns to his starting park, and October-December he'll work at a Welcome Center at a beach location an hour and a half north. **Financial situation:** Money is tight. He's doing some work with his old boss from his previous 10-year job, but the dynamics have shifted and he's making much less than before. His RV still has ongoing issues and he has the same bills to pay as mentioned in previous updates.

Feb 25, 2025 | Oregon State Parks > Honeyman · 23% match
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